𝐉𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬 ?

chapter 2

"how are you sister ? I missed you ! I've a lot of things to tell you ! She said, shes definitely so excited.
- I'm pretty good sis ! Have you taken something from Italian for us ? I said.
- Of course ! And I just met Shawn, he was.. oh he's here ! Come on shawn !"

Is she crazy ? I'm going to kill myself, suddenly I want to be in my room alone.

He comes.
Smile at me. He looks so good holy shit.
"- hi Amy.
- Oh.. hi Shawn, how are you ?
- Can we talk ? He said.
What should I do ? Say no ? I'm not going to do another mistake.
- Yes, we can but there's Elie what about her I'm not going to let her alone
- guys !! Seriously ! It's ok, go talk together ! I'm waiting you here.
- Thank you Elie. Shawn said."

We are walking with a silence. First I want to ask him if he is angry then.. I don't know I'll let him talk.

"- Amy ?
- Yes?
- would you let me talk this time ?
- yes.
- ok remember ? When I say that I was sorry ?
- I remember yes.
- so I know this is weird but... I..
His phone starts ringing. Don't tell me this is Brie because I'll getting angry.
- oh shit I'm sorry... he said
- it's but what's weird ?
- I..I...I can't tell you right now. I... I know that I wanted to but.. oh I'm so sorry this is Brie and I've an appointment with her I'm late. It wasn't important. He seems very stress about something. I don't like this.
- Shawn ! Are you kidding me ? Whats going on ? Why are you so stress ? Want can't you tell me ? He says nothing.
- Shawn !!!
- Amy stop please !!! You are asking me to many questions. I don't know what's going on between us since 4 days ago ! I don't what is wrong with me. Please forget what I said. Let me go.
I really don't understand him ! What is his secret ?
- But Shawn.. I start
- Amy. Please.
- shawn let me say something. Do you know why I'm talking about brie to you ?
- I wouldn't say you are jealous because I hate that. So ?
- I don't trust her.
It's the true I've never trusted her. I don't want her to hurt shawn.
- why ?
- Because I don't know Shawn and plus she's taking away my best friend from me !
- Amy. Please we are going to talk but not know. I have to go.
- So, go."

So now he knows that I don't like brie, and I don't trust her. He had 0 reaction so what does he think ?
He's gone. I'm joining my sister, but she's calling with someone. When she see me she stop her call. That's why I love from my sister. She always give me attention when we are together. Should I tell her the story ?

"- well, where does Shawn is going ?
- he has an appointment with his favorite girl in the world her : girlfriend brie.
I said, is this too much ? I guess no.
- wow, you are looking angry or sad. No both.
- may be. It doesn't matter.
- you want to talk about it sister ? She asked.
- I'm not ready now but anyway you said that you had a lot of things to tell me. So start ! I want to know. Did you meet a boy ?
- oh... YES he's so cute oh my God !!"

*Few minutes later*

"That's it and so his name is Matt. I'll see him again in four days."

Wow, I can't believe my sister met someone ! She's not the kind of person who's interested in boys. I even thought that before she left, the boys were disgusting to her. Since her breakup with Daniel, her ex, she no longer trusts anyone and doesn't want to hear about it anymore. I'm so glad she met someone ! I hope he's a good person. He better be.

"So that's it ! And you ? Are you seeing anyone ?
- Um... I see Shawn. She laughs
- I'm talking about a guy who is your crush.
With a smile
- Yes, Shawn... But it's not mutual.
- Wait Shawn, Shawn's begging your best friend ? Or another one ?
- Shawn my best friend, yes. I know it's crazy, but lately I've been so lost.
- I knew it ! It was so obvious in your eyes every time you talked about him and the way you looked at him was obvious."

How was it "obvious"? Is it that obvious ? Or is it just because she's my sister ? Actually I don't talk about my stories. Quite simply because I don't have any friends except shawn and my sister if I can say that. I like loneliness.

"Obvious ? Is it that obvious ? Am I blushing ?
- Since you've been together you've had a really merging friendship I've always imagined you as a couple so it's obvious to me the meaning that you're going to end up together.
She said, with a smile.
- But I told you it wasn't mutual... And he's in a relationship with Brie.
- Just because there's a goalie doesn't mean you can't score, sister."
On the one hand she's right but I don't want to ruin their relationship so I'd rather not do anything.
"And so what happened with Shawn earlier ?
- We've been in a fight for a few days now... then I feel like he's abandoning her or at least Brie's trying to keep him as far away from me as possible so I'm telling him all this. A moment like a bitch I told him there was only him in my mind... in short, that's it."
- Wow, and what did he say to you ? You really don't like Brie... But she seems really nice, I don't understand, haha.
- I told him to forget and leave and then he was supposed to tell me something to but Brie still ruined everything. She's not being nice to me in all this.
- Oh, I see I'm trying to send him a message tonight ?
- I don't know about that...
- Come on, we'll do it together, sis !
- All right, I'll do it."

She hugs me and we go home in the rain. Once home, I let Elie come to my room. We're going to do a party together like we did months ago. She sits on my bed, I do the same. Then she hands me a pendant with the first letter of my first name. "Elie, it's qo beautiful, thank you so much."
I tell her enthusiastically. She smiles at me. The evening goes by and we watch a movie called "the Sun is also a star." Then Elie reminds me that I have to send a message to Shawn.

"Come on, you have to send him a message, you remember that !"
She told me. I'm conscious, so I'm taking my phone. Look for Shawn on Twitter because I know he's often active on this social media. I'm on the conversation, on our last conversation we were talking about his new guitar. He sings so well, I always wonder he's not embarking on a career as an artist.
So I start writing the message and then I see that Shawn is writing too. I'm freaking out.

"Elie ELIE he also writes ! What should I do, stop ?
- Wow, but calm down, sis, is everything okay. Is he still writing ?
- Yes !
- Then let him finish writing."

She seems so calm on my side my heart beats so fast it's horrible. After 5 minutes I finally receive a notification. I'm opening.

"I'm so sorry, sweetheart... for walking away from you. I left earlier, I hurt you so much that I can't even see myself in the mirror anymore. You've always been there for me and I'm a coward. I ruined everything. I know it would have been better if I had said it to your face, but it's better if you knew now. You know, we've been friends forever....
Brie's not gonna like what I'm writing to you, but you know what ? It really doesn't matter. I'm not going to say I don't love her anymore, but I really detach myself from her. She's starting to get really weird. I even feel like she's seeing someone else even though she spends every day with me, I guess she's forcing me to. That's right. She even threatened me. She told me that if I left her she would do anything to ruin our friendship. A crazy woman. Yes. I don't want to lose you, so I'd rather stay with her. Like I said, I wanted to say it to your face, but okay. Amy, I don't know if I consider you only as a friend. I mean, I don't know how I feel. We'll talk about it later, right ? Good night kiss, I love you, Amy."

It really doesn't take much for me to scream for joy. I can't believe it. Did Shawn just tell me that maybe he feels something towards me? Despite this Brie.... by the way, she's completely crazy, this girl ! I can't believe she threatened her own "boyfriend." Maybe he's right, maybe she's seeing someone else. But Shawn doesn't seem to be disturbing, at least at least wants to leave her. So he doesn't care. I finally get out of my mind when I see Elie jumped from everywhere and shouted "ALWAYS I KNOW IT!"
"Elie OH my God, did we read the same thing ?
- Yes, damn it ! I am so happy ! You have to see Now for the first kiss!
- What the hell are you talking about ? He said he didn't know how he felt, but that doesn't mean he necessarily feels something towards me. - That doesn't mean it doesn't.
She has a point there.
- Well, send him an answer ! I'm sure he's waiting for you !
I write my message :

"Shawn, you don't have to apologize. It did hurt me, but now I understand that it's really not your fault and only Brie's. That crazy woman ! How dare she threaten you. I love you, Shawn. It may sound crazy to you, but I don't know if you saw it when you started writing, I started it too and I wanted to tell you the same thing.
About : us. I'm just as lost as you are. I suggest we meet ? On Monday ? Good night, Shawn. I love you."

Did I really write that? I'm on the clouds. It's getting late with Elie and we decide to go to bed. Tomorrow is a new day.