Something about writing this has awaken something in me, I thought it would be fair to share, because some of you have been supporting me a lot.
I've been feeling like something is not quite right, I stopped doing a lot of things trying not to think of him, like really stopped. It's been bugging me how it's affecting me in such a negative way.
I can't blame him, I'm never gonna do this, he didn't ask for all of this, he wouldn't ask. Therefore, I blame me, and I blame me a lot. Even though I never asked for it as well.
He's a big part of my day, when I'm thinking about food I think about what he's craving to eat, when I'm having a quality time with friends I'm thinking about what's he doing.
I know y'all may think I'm crazy or that it's unhealthy, but I just can't stop loving him to the fullest. Istg, he has the most beautiful soul I've ever seen, he's so pure in his own way, that makes me want to squeal. Gosh, I'm so in love.
He's been hunting me lately, on my thoughts, when I think about a happy life. I'm starting college, I should be more mature, right? Stop daydreaming about the boy that didn't have the chance to meet me and I didn't have the chance to meet as well.
I'm devastated, I miss him like crazy. All I can do is wait.
And I'm god damn sure he's gonna keep me waiting like a faithful dog, but I'm willing to wait, he's the o my one I can love.
