15 Pregnant Alone (Fillie)

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I got asked if I was ok and the answer is no im not but I have to fight everyone of my words because Im scared of what someone will say if I say Im not so we pretend were ok smile laugh but in reality we want to die. I want to follow my dreams but I cant do that when I'm so fucked up that I dont know what to do with my life.Parents dont understand that what they do effects their kids more than it does them. They dont know that we cut or cry every night before we go to sleep. They don't understand that fights tear us apart and that we wish it would stop. That we feel guilty for what they do. That friends leave and we just want them to hug us and tell us it will be ok. That we get addicted to drugs and cutting and shit because we dont have someone to be there. That we turn so cold that we dont want to talk to someone because it hurts so we yell back. We cry after we yell and it hurts.

"Millie!" Finn yells at me as he once again stands in my front doorway. "Sorry Finn come in . Ally isn't here she is at Disney World with Noah for a few days ," I say , Finn just gives me a look as if he remembers about my falshbacks . Like when I had one while we were at Diseny World on our 5th date .  "So I came to talk to you about Allyanna." Finn states "Okay um what about her?" I reply still shaken up a bit from the incedent that just happened a moment ago.

"Millie is she my daughter?" Finn bluntly asks "Finn ...." I say hesitant too tell him. "Millie answer the god damn question!" He yells I flinch he looks sorry but I knew he'd find out one day. " Yes Finn she is yours , I'm sorry I couldn't get rid of her ." I say breaking down in each word . " Fine but I'm gone , I'll be back later Millie I have too go process this." Finn was saying as he trudged out the door. She slamed the door behind him and slide down slowly. At this point all her tears were cold , her heart was warm but burning intensely . Millie was glad Noah had Ally for a few days . Little did she know Finn was on the other side of the door etting the tears flow freely .  " Why did I leave her , I should of helped her ?" Finn mumbled so only he could hear . However Millie had heard it too. 

Millie opened the door , knowing FInn now was on the other side of it . She sat down next to him and just sat there . Both of the two just sat in Millie's apartment building's hallway . Staring down at the specks of dirt on the gray carpet . Millie soon fell asleep on Finn's shoulder her carried her up too bed , thanking her menatlly for the support and leaving the door unlocked . Just as he was about to leave he heard her say to stay . " Please stay with me Finnie. " Reluctantly her crawled underneath the covers thinking of the nickname she called him well used to . He had not let anyone call him that in years only her .