It suck's when on Instagram seeing all these couple posts and all these films of people falling in love and all you can do is imagine what it feels like because in reality you have no clue, because you feel as if you've never been in love before. It sucks when the people you think your in love with or at least like don't even bother to look at you because they've got there eyes on the perfect skinny girl with all the right curves in the right places and look like they are a walking photo shop when in reality they were just blessed.
It sucks when you try so hard to be the girl that everyone likes and gets in with and all the boys fancy with the perfect smile and the pretty hair and gorgeous body when in reality I can't even manage to hold a conversation without making it awkward or saying the wrong thing or getting that awkward that I can't even look at the persons face no matter how long I've known them for.
It sucks to want to be perfect with good grades and a good group of friends that I trust and feel like you belong when in reality the group your in you just feel like a sheep following them around cause there is only one person in the group that likes you and you know full well the rest are always judging everything you do and talking about you behind your back or literally being horrible right to your face making snarky comments or cutting you off when you talk and just being plane nasty but you just don't have the guts to stand up for your self or just leave because your to scared to be on your own so you just sit there and take it then cry yourself to sleep at night feeling worthless.
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RandomThis is about all my struggles no matter how ridiculous they are or stupid because I know I'm not the only one who feels them and I know people can relate.
