𝕤𝕠𝕣𝕣𝕪 | 𝕧𝕜𝕠𝕠𝕜 ✔

ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕊𝕚𝕩

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

It was a pretty short drive to our next destination, the top of a hill.

But now that we are at this point, I've been thinking. This is probably our last "normal". I know no matter how much I want to fight that thought, it will never go back to our normal. Jungkook has always been there for me and let's hope we continue that. He doesn't have to love me back romantically but he has to at least care.

Yes I do genuinely think about everything as out last time but can you really blame me? Actually scratch that, yes you can, I chose this path. Sorry not sorry I don't regret this. This may have been the most painful week but it has also been the most exciting.

Wow that got deep but what can I do, I can never shut up.

Jungkook revered parked so we can look at the buildings in the trunk of the car. When I sat down there and just started looking at the lights that were blending into the night sky, I started to think of my journey with Jungkook. The memories felt like they were slipping away from me. Each one going faster than the last one.

I'm in love and I'm not doing anything to resist it. I can't believe I'm head over heels for Jungkook. Something is playing with my feelings and that "something" is my heart.

The memories are still coming and going. I always wanted to spend so much time with him, I never knew it was going to affect me this much in the future.

"Hey Jungkook, I'm glad I'm spending this night with you" I say. But Jungkook face said a lot, I wish I would have noticed his face before, all I saw was guilt. "It ain't that big of deal tae, I'm just trying to make your dream dates come to life" that's all he needed to say to make me fall harder. This is just adding more problems to my already big problem. There's something I won't regret ever in my life and that is falling for Jeon Jungkook.

There we are, two boys just staring a bunch of lights not knowing what was coming next. We were talking about some pretty deep stuff but that didn't ruin our mood because somehow we found a way to light up the situation. I always wanted this, just us talking, no distractions, no nothing.

"The future is a scary things to think about. Everthing can change so quick, all I hope is to have the same people that have always supported me" I started to say what I was thinking. "The future is terrifying but if you know you go into it with the correct people then you know you will go through to strongly, how do you think we have made it this far? We are trying and we will continue to try until we feel discouraged but you will have people you love surrounding you so they will come and encourage you to continue." Jungkook said sitting up causing us look at each other.

We were both too distracted that we didn't notice that silence was surrounding us. We both started leaning in, my mind went blank, nothing is going to stop me, I don't want to lean back, I want to kiss him. Our foreheads were touching, eyes closed, enjoying each other's presence. But Jungkook got closer, brushing our lips together and that's when I knew Jungkook was a drug and I wasn't planning to stop using it.

That's when I had my first kiss with Jeon Jungkook. I never thought a kiss would have so much emotion. It felt like this was going to be our last touch. My mind went from blank to being overpowered with memories.

There was the time where we got out of school and I was super frustrated and I needed to cry so we entered a random apartment complex and sat on some random stairs and just started crying.

When I told him I liked him and he just looked at me as I ran out like an idiot. Actually, I don't regret running out of there but I do regret ignoring him for a week.

When we finally started talking after that week of me ignoring him and he offered this crazy proposal. That is the worst but best decision of my life.

This whole is experience is changing me. The sparks were going everywhere. Actually anything that includes sparks is everything I'm feelings when I kiss him. This is an amazing feeling.

               We finally separated but out foreheads we still touching all you could hear was us out of breath. I wanted to feel his touch again, it brought so much happiness, yes a lot of confusion but the happiness completely changed that.

              We reconnected our lips and he started to gently put me on my back so he can be on top of me. This is a sight I never thought I would need but I got it and I wouldn't mind seeing it again.

But when something is good there's always the questions. Is this really love? Will this be a forever? What are Jungkooks true intentions? Am I being played? But somehow those quickly disappeared when he did things like this.

This is probably over dramatic but it feels like all my problems have been taken away from me but then Jungkook disconnects our lips and he stares at me and says the words that I've been dreading all week.

"I've made my choice."

͙⁺˚*･༓☾end of chapter 6☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

The next chapter is my last one and then it's off to the questions and answers. I liked writing this book yes it took me about half a year but no one ever said writing a book would ever be easy and I'm really proud of this.
One of the memories is based on a memory I had with my best friend and if you can guess you get a cookie. Love you <3