I woke up around two in the morning, I didn't bother checking my phone, instead I went for a walk. I watch the cars go by and listened to the birds chirping, I felt great and confident. I saw Austin from a mile away but as I got closer and closer I saw him kissing another girl, it felt like I was stabbed in the heart, I began to ball my hands up and my eyes began to water, it was getting hard to breathe like I just tried to swallow a spoon full of peanut butter. I wanted to confront him then and their but I didn't, I ran back home, darkness had filled the sad void in my heart. I stopped talking to Austin, after what felt like mouths I get a notification from Austin "hey, I know you are upset, I saw you walking towards me, I hope you will find forgiveness in your heart😓" he said but I replied with a simple "it's fine" but I knew damn well it wasn't, the fire in my soul wasn't going to go out yet, I asked one of my friends named Ray if he could help me out, the plan was to walk past Austin and not say anything the kiss ray and see how Austin would react. As me and ray leave my house we began to look for Austin, we walked everywhere, I began to lose hope, " there he is" ray said. I looked over to see Austin in the icecream shop eating icecream alone, he looked so sad. "It's time I said with a huge grin as me and ray stop at the front of the icecream shop I kissed ray, Austin began to cry and left the icecream shop, I started to laugh but then realized that wasn't right of me to do that, I told ray to go home as did I. I found out two days later Austin had died of cancer. I began to cry,"I can't believe he's gone"
I will never forgive myself for this
