Broken
Allison H.
Chapter 1; Drowning in my own Self Pity
Eyes. That's everything I see. Eyes. Eyes that are staring right at me. Watching my every move.
God, I think I'll explode if they don't stop. I think.
Yes, everyone felt sorry for me, but did that give them the excuse to stare? The only words I ever hear now are murmurs, Only those stopped once they noticed that I was there. If they would just go away and stop staring, maybe I might one day forget. If they would ever stop the staring.
It's enough that it would drive even Buddha insane.
So I stick up my head and pretend I don't notice them.
Keyword; pretend.
I still can't believe Mason cheated on me. With Lola, of all people! My own family! My cousin and best friend!
At first everyone tried to reach out to me and make me feel less like a piece of used crap. But nothing worked so they just stopped trying.
It's been a year.
Man, I've been a wallower. Drowning in pity. My pity. Drowning in my own self-pity. That's just pitiful.
Great.
Wonderful.
Terrific.
I walk into the cafeteria and everyone looks at me, then turns away and keeps talking. At least it wasn't about me this time.
Instead of watching me, they're watching some boy I've never seen before. Then he turns and looks at me.
Crap, they've already told the new boy my life story. It's not a very good or happy one.
I sit down at my usual empty table.
A year ago me and Mason would've sat together all flirting and cuddling, but this year it was Mason and Lola. I wanted to just spit in disgust.
It was a normal Thursday afternoon and Mason said he had to study. Exams were coming so I thought nothing of it.
So I get in my purple bug and drive to the mall, thinking Oh, I'll just get something for our anniversary.
And boy was I wrong.
I walked into the food court wanting a cookie from the little cookie place when I saw them.
It was Mason and Lola sitting across from each other in a small booth. And they were holding hands.
I was feeling faint when Mason leaned in to kiss my cousin.
That was it! I shrieked and he heard me.
He and Lola looked at me with guilty expressions. They deserve to.
I walked over to Mason and slapped him. Then I threw Lola's drink in her face and ran out into my bug.
I burst out into tears and slowly drove home.
I hated Mason, I hated Lola.
Most importantly, I hated life.
The bell snapped me out of my usual flashback. I hurried over and dumped my tray.
I walked into Social Studies and sat down by myself.
Nobody ever sat down next to me in fear of me having a mental breakdown.
New Kid walked in and headed towards the empty seat next to me. Oh no he just didn't.
Chapter 2; Oh my God I can still talk!
"There's an empty seat behind me." I mumble. I hardly ever talk. It was amazing that my voice still worked.
"I need to sit as close to the board as I can." He answered.
I was silent for a while before the question finally gnawed at me and I just asked. "What did they tell you about me?"
"That you've had a rough life." Well, yes, I have. My mom died in childbirth and my dad did suicide one night while I was sleeping. And the whole Mason thing last year.
"Yeah considering that your mom died because you were born, your dad did suicide in the house you were sleeping in, and having the best thing in your life leave you for the cousin you have to now live with. Yeah, I guess you could say that."
He was silent. "Wow I guess fate hasn't been to nice to you."
"No dip. Also considering that you were pregnant but had a miscarriage from your depression." Yeah, that was true. Me and Mason were expecting when he decided to get cozy with Lola and whoever else.
"Oh my God, that's terrible! Well, I'm Jackson Joyce and I guess I know what some of the pain feels like. My girlfriend who I dated for years, was cheating with my own brother. And she got pregnant with him."
Jackson POV
"Me and Hailey had never done anything to get her pregnant, so I knew it couldn't have been me.
"One night I was up and heard Hailey and Austen talking.
"Austen, I think I might be pregnant." I heard. It was Hailey's voice, no doubt.
"I was just standing behind that closed door thinking What have you done, Hailey?!
"Then Austen started his yelling.
"It was one of the worst nights of my life."
