All Mine (Drarry)

"I'm only okay with you"

It was 2 days before the ball, Draco was coming in the dorm room after class and noticed Harry was already in there. Draco did run to the Library for a quick minute but he didn't know Harry had left.. Harry was crying on the bed, looking at his hands which shook impulsively. "Hazza? Are you okay?" he said slowly, setting his books down as he watched Harry closely.

"I've never been okay.." he muttered through sharp breaths and Draco went over to him, picking his chin up slowly. "What happened" Draco whispered and Harry squeezed his eyes shut, shaking his head "I'm sorry" he whispered and Draco looked down at his wrists, they were stained with blood. 

"Why Harry" Draco snapped, not meaning to and Harry flinched, keeping his eyes shut "Harry." Draco said sternly "I'm sorry! i didn't- i- Astoria kept staying- that- that- that you want me dead- and- and that- that i'm not worth living for and i should just- kill- kill myself" Harry sobbed, bringing his legs up and hugging them.

 "Harry James Fucking Potter i swear on Merlin's Beard that there is no way in hell i'd want you dead. I have spent nights up with you and held you and kissed you to make you happy from a nightmare, i wouldn't have done that if i didn't care about you" Draco cursed and Harry shuttered, "I'm sorry- i'm sorry" Harry rocked a bit as he repeated the words. 

"Get up" Draco demanded. Harry didn't get up though. "Harry. I said get up" Harry slowly stood up, and put his arms around his stomach cautiously. 

"you haven't been eating again i can see" Draco said sternly and Harry shook his head, Harry was thin again, like the first time Draco saw him.

 "shirt off" Draco said and Harry looked at him with pleading eyes. "I said off" Harry was afraid what Draco would do if he didn't so he pulled it off slowly, revealing his thin body Draco grabbed his hips, pushing his hands away from his stomach and Draco kissed him softly. Harry was kind of shocked but kissed back slowly. 

Draco took his hand after breaking the kiss and took him to the mirror, putting him in front of it. "What do you see" Harry stayed silent, looking down but his head was pulled back up by a strong hand. 

"I said, what do you see" he said against Harry's ear and the boy shuttered, wiping his cheeks "Me" he said softly,  and Draco nodded slowly "What else do you see?" he said and Harry scanned his reflection slowly. "my wrists.. disgusting wrists" he said slowly which he got a sharp slap to the thigh, making him squeak "nope, try again. What do you see about your wrists" Draco said sternly, what on earth was he trying to do?

"I see that they're bleeding.. and i see scars" Harry said slowly and Draco nodded "next" he said and Harry looked at himself again, eyeing his neck to his V line "I see faint hickies from you" Harry said with a small smile and Draco smirked, nodding again. "keep going" he said slowly and Harry blinked slowly..

He looked at his abdomen. "I see my ribs- i got so thin i can see my ribs poking through" Harry said quietly and Draco nodded again.. "I see- i see my wild hair, same as my fathers.. and my pretty green eyes.. just like my mothers" Draco smiled when he said that. 

"I- I see my tattoo.. on my bicep.. my little tea cup" Harry said quietly and Draco nodded, wanting him to continue. "I see my pierced ears, but i haven't had my earrings in for a while.." he said slowly, his eyes continuing to scan. He stopped on his chest.

"I see my large scar across my chest. The scar my uncle gave me.. I never liked having my shirt off because i didn't want questions about all the cuts on my body" Harry said almost silently and Draco nodded slowly, knowing what he said. "I- i see the necklace you gave me.. the infinity charm.. it's cold against my chest but i love it so much.. you're name is engraved into it.. and the diamonds on one side of the charm.." Harry whispered and Draco nodded, noting to him he can stop now.