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Felicity

It's been 2 days since huli kong nakausap si Baklisak, di ko sya namimiss okay? pero ayun iba pala yung feeling pag walang nangungulit sayo, lalo na kapag may pinagdadaanan kang problema. This year is quite exhausting for me, from  school stuffs to personal stuffs. Hindi naman ako ganito dati, I was so friendly to the point na I knew everyone from this school pero I'm not popular. Si Sally, sya yung popular. We're friends? I think pero we aren't that close. Going back, I was so friendly not until I got involved in a past relationship dito sa school. M.U. lang naman kami pero di ko alam na magiging big deal pala yon sa iba. I was so happy, I always smile to everyone kahit na may pinagdadaanan ako. Pero after ng pag-iwan ko kay grea(pronounced as gray) everything turned upside down. The people whom I knew to be my friends were nowhere to be found, I was so weak that time, wala akong matakbuhan. I felt betrayed, sobrang unfair nila kapag kailangan nila ng magcocomfort one call away ako pero pag ako na yung nanganagailangan wala na akong mahagilap na kaibigan. They left me without knowing that I had reason why I ended that so called " walang-label" type of relationship. Because of that, I stopped smiling to anyone or anything. Nothing ever made me smile again. I got into a new circle of friends pero ako yung pinaka unknown sakanila. Minsan minsan lang ako sumasama sakanila. I realized na I'm better when I'm alone, alam kong no man is an island pero when I'm alone I find peace and I think I feel relaxed. I was never satisfied with all my hardwork when it comes to academics, alam kong di parin sapat lahat ng ine-exert kong effort. Pero one time nagulat nalang ako may nagchat saken. Sobrang nabastos ako, I don't know him pero he does know me? weird. Yun pala kaibigan ni Luke, Luke I met him kasi nakita nya akong kumakain sa isang empty room, he joined me and Luke is the only person I trust, wala nang iba sya lang. Luke had tried many attempts to make me smile pero he failed, ako din ang unang naka-alam about sakanila ni Erin, yung jowa nya. Okay naman kami ni Erin  pero di ko parin nakukuha yung vibes nya since masayahin syang tao. I only talk to Erin when it comes to serious matters lalo na kapag di sila in good terms ni Luke. Anyway, si Isaac schoolmate ko pala sya sobrang kulit at hyper nya. Di lang sa chat pati sa personal, he always waves and smiles at me parang yung dating ako lang male version nga lang. Tuwing uwian akala ni Isaac na hindi ko sya nakikita na sinusulyapan ako para lang malaman nya kung ngumiti na ba ako. Natatakot na rin ako minsan don. Pero he always reminds me to smile. I pity Isaac, wala syang ka-alam alam sa nangyari. He knows nothing.