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we layed in bed for hours on in just wanting to be alone together we had closed all blindes and curtains shut all doors and turned of all lights i was curled up next to him we layed their he had his hand in my hair and his arm aroung my waist i was thinking about how did i know how to be a mother i wasn't a perfect person i had baggage and a lot of it i really didn't see how jensen could still put up with me. i have ptsd and major depression and major bipolor dissoerder when i was little people could barly stand to be around me everyone hated me and so did my own mother. i never was happy, i had made several suicide attemps and now i am married to a actor living in a big house a shit load of money and what most girls call the perfect life hell i even acted in a show and with my past ii thought i was going to be dead before i became 21 but iam not so yay i guess. but what if my child doesn't think i love her enough or i dont and she ends up cutting and trying to hang herself or she has my dissorders and has no friends and people can't stand to be around her i don't want my child to go through what i did. i hope for the best but we will never now untill its to late
i wrote this chapter based on me her past is mine same illnesses sam eatttemps same thoughts on my future so if you did read and you have thoughts or attemps please message m eon here and we can talk i dont want anyone to hurt themselves because their is allways someone who loves you even if you never met them someone will come to love you
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