A$AP Rocky imagines

002

Y/n's p.o.v
I woke up in my bed alone . Again . I lived with my boyfriend Rakim . Recently he hasn't been home . He's been distant . And been blowing me off for a while . We had a huge argument a couple months back . Because he was upset i didn't want to have sex with him . We've been together for a solid 3 1/2 years yet i didn't have sex with him . Not once . It wasn't about sex when we met . But i accused him of cheating and he basically admitted to doing it because i didn't have sex with him . I stayed ... i feel so stupid but i love him so much . He's been so distant to the point where he doesn't even acknowledge my existence in a room or at our house.

I checked my phone to see if i had any notifications . I had a lot from Instagram , Twitter , snap . A few missed calls from my best friend Imani . But Rocky hasn't called me or anything . I laid back down and stared at the ceiling . Tears began to form in my eyes . I felt so alone . I love him so much but this shit hurts . I started to cry . I heard the door open from downstairs . I quickly wiped my tears . I put my hair in a bun and got up . Rocky was coming up the stairs . " hey babe " i said as he walked into the room . No answer . He walked straight passed me . He smelled like perfume . He grabbed something off the dresser and was about to walk back out . I grabbed his arm . He gave me a " did you just fucking touch me " type of look .

" where are you going ?" I questioned . My eyes were already red and puffy from crying a couple minutes ago . " out ." He said while getting out my grip . He closed the bedroom door and i heard the front door close . I wanted to breakdown . He's doing it again . Cheating . This shit was getting old but i just can't let go . I love him too much . It's draining . So fucking draining. I was crying again . My phone started to ring it was Imani . " wassup " i said while wiping my tears . " you're crying . What happened ? " Imani replied . I broke down . " mani .... he's doing again .. he's cheating and i can't let him go and it's fucking exhausting ! I'm tired . It hurts so fucking bad " i said as i broke down . " baby .... I'm coming over . " mani said as she hung up .

I rested my head on the dresser as i bent down . I felt so weak . I got up to take a shower . I had a urge to cut . I haven't done it in years . Since highschool . But , i had a very strong urge . I looked at the razor blade sitting on the sink . Fuck it . The pain i felt emotionally and mentally was unbearable . I felt betrayed, lost , alone . I started to cut my wrist . Slice after slice . I had to stop myself before i hit my vein . I took a deep breath in before turning on the water . I took a cold shower and wrapped my wrist up . The door bell went off and i walked downstairs . The smell of the perfume still lingered in the air . I opened the door and my best friend , Tyler , and ferg was standing at my door . I close the door or at least tried too. " no un uh ." Tyler said . I rolled my eyes .

" what do you want ..." i whispered . " i told you i was coming "mani said . " yeah you said YOU , not THEM ! " i yelled . Mani flinched a little bit . They all walked in . I closed the door and slide down it . Ferg and Tyler was like my brothers . I loved them like family . " y/n what happened ? " ferg questioned . I took a breath in . I didn't want to cry . But , lord . Tears to started to fall . " umm ... h-he cheating again . He's been ignoring me since the argument we had . But now it's really bad . He doesn't acknowledge my e-existence in a room or here . As y'all can see he's not here . He comes and he leaves . He doesn't sleep in our bed or anything...... I'm alone " i whispered . I whispered loud enough for them to hear me . I started to cry more .

" y/n/n I'm so sorry . Come here ." Ferg said as he opened his arms . I slowly got up and walked to ferg . He gave me the biggest hug . I couldn't help but cry . " Ima talk to him for you because this shit ain't cool . It's not ok the fuck is wrong with him ?!" Ferg simi-yelled . It made me flinch just a little . " nah , it cool . Don't do it . " i whispered . All three of them looked at me like i was slow or something . " the fuck you mean don't do it ?!" Tyler yelled . " i mean what i said . Don't do it . " i whispered/ yelled . Tyler rolled his eyes so did mani . " man fuck outta here , we doing it " Tyler said . " I'm serious . Don't do it ! It's not going to change anything ! " i yelled . " y/n . He's hurting you and he doesn't care ! Someone has to talk to him! " ferg yelled . By this time he let me go . I was still crying . I just put my hand through my head. " I'm going to sleep . " i whispered .