Fix You (Larry Stylinson AU)

Recovery

*L*

Louis wakes up to the white walls of a hospital room. He feels like complete shit. His stomach feels like it's been turned inside out and beaten with baseball bats. He looks around the room to take in his surroundings. Zayn is laying in the chair next to him. He is fast asleep.
Louis starts to panic. Harry would be here. He knows he would be. No matter how pissed off he is at Louis, we would still be here holding his hand. Something had to be wrong.

Louis tries to extend his hand to Zayn but is hindered by the needles in his arm. "Zayn." Louis tries but his voice is too hoarse to hear much of anything. He clears his throat. "Zaynie." He says much louder.

Zayn stirs awake. At first he looks confused but then realizes that Louis is awake and speaking to him. "Louis, oh my god." Zayn says with emotion laced between every word. He looks like he could cry. He wraps his arms around Louis.

"Where is Harry?" Louis asks. A choked sound leaves Zayn's throat. "Where is Harry?" He demands.

Zayn lets go of Louis and sits back on the chair. He has a dreadful expression on his face. His bottom lip is quivering like he's about to start crying.

Louis starts crying. He's thinking the absolute worst. "Where is he? Please just tell me, Zaynie." Louis starts openly sobbing. "Is he... Is he—?"

"No, Lou. He's not.. dead." Relief washes over Louis. Zayn's expression does not lighten up. "He's, uh, in a coma."

The words hit Louis like a ton of bricks. He's crying so hard that he can't breath. He begins to hyperventilate. "What.." he tries to take a deep breath but another sob comes out instead. "What happened?"

"After the ambulance came to get you, you were unresponsive. They revived you there but they didn't know if you were going to make it. The EMTs didn't let Harry go in the ambulance with you." Louis sobs into his hands. His heart breaks for his boyfriend. He must have felt so afraid. "He went back to his flat and, uh, slit his wrist." A new wave of tears fall from Louis' eyes. "He almost bled out but.." Zayn pauses to clear his throat. "He called for an ambulance right before he passed out from the blood loss."

"Take me to him." Louis demands. He starts messing with the needles in his arms. The machines start beeping in protest when he yanks the IVs from his body.
"Louis." Zayn cautions. "You shouldn't do that, man." He places a hand on Louis' arm which Louis yanks away. "They are trying to get you healthy again." Louis ignores what his friend is saying and tries getting up from the hospital bed. Zayn places a hand more forcefully on Louis' shoulder, successfully pushing him back onto the bed. "Louis, stop! You nearly fucking died."

Zayn's words are sobering to Louis. He hadn't really processed what happened to himself. He only cared about Harry, not himself. He truly almost drank himself to death. If Harry hadn't have come home, he would have died. That's why he owes everything to Harry. He keeps him alive. Louis failed him, completely and utterly failed him. Louis is the reason he cut himself so deep that he nearly died. He almost killed the thing in the world that he loves most.

"I don't care about me." Louis admits softly. He finally allows Zayn to keep him down on the hospital bed. He doesn't fight his friend anymore.

"Clearly." Zayn mutters. "You're best friend, Louis. But you're a fucking idiot, alright?" Zayn huffs out an emotionless laugh. "When I got the call from the hospital, they said that you were touch and go and I should get down here immediately. That entire drive here, I thought that I lost my best friend." He sniffles. "I should have been there for you more. I knew you had a drinking problem.. Of course I knew.. I should have helped you more." Zayn locks eyes with Louis. "I'm so sorry, mate. You have to believe me. I'm so sorry that I didn't do more to help you. I know how lost you were when your mum died and I should have been a better friend, not a piece of shit enabler."