My First Love , Forever My Love

Part 1

White walls . White ceilings.  What had i been staring at for the last couple of days. I never thought i could feel this way about anyone. Im completely heartbroken damn you Peter why did you have to be so good to be and yet so handsome at the same time. After my mum died I never thought i could feel heartbroken in that way again . I had always been careful about who my friends are but now I just can't help it . I'm a wild teenager . Well not completely wild I'm still my little self ( yes i said that cause I'm really small ) . It's all because of 1 boy . I had read about love and romance and all of that . But i had never truly experienced it until this school year . It's going to be along year.

   Just before the start of senior year

Today was the day . The last day of my summer before all hell aka high school came back in. All the teenagers with anxiety problems about there skin or what clothes they were wearing or how there hair looked . Then you get me . I put some effort in but not as much as the other girls in my year do . Maybe this is why I have never had a boyfriend before. Well a proper one anyway . We have all had those boyfriends who don't count . Because it wasn't really real it was just like we played on the see-saw together . Even my little sister had a boyfriend more serious than I have. My big sister has only had 1 boyfriend . Nothing that serious she broke it off when she was going into senior year . Unfortunately for me her boyfriend well now ex-boyfriend was in my year . Even in some of my classes . It was quite awkward after their breakup cause we were next door neighbours . So that was really fun . Now that your all caught up to date . It's the 1st day of school .