Broken glass

'You don't get it!' I screamed. The pain was eating me alive as I watched the person I care about the  most try to leave me. I fell to my knees hugging myself, in pitiful hopes that it will keep me together; that I won't break any further, but my hopes failed as I heard the flatlining of the heart monitor. The sound was appalling, the reality was a nightmare. I could swear I was standing in the center of hell on earth. As it all went crashing down, so did I. My body froze, hunched over and distraught. My eyes wide, hope flooding the orbs to somehow find a way. My hands, raw and numb clutched the chain clasped around my neck, pleading for it to just tighten and take away the air in the room, my breaths. But my pleads came to be unheard. Ever so slowly I stood to my feet, my legs shaky, head light. I turned my back to him, slowly slipping into denial. Walking through the doors looks of sympathy lined my vision, but I just shook my head and left. I left. Then and there is where I decided to live my life how he would have wanted it, I owed it to him, I owed it to Matthew.