Rusame-stop being so adorable

little did you know

-Russias pov-

I was sitting down humming to myself. When meri came into our room. He looked like he was crying. He stumbled over to me an collapsed on my chest.
"Meri what's wrong?" I asked. He sniffled and looked up at me. "Meri..."
"Why do u care for me?" He muttered. My breath hitched. "meri...Why are you asking that? we're married and i love u with all my heart" he started to cry. i started petting his head and started to sing. 

(play song)

'You know it feels my heart with happiness
To have met and to have lived with you.
And yet as time goes on and older we grow it feels a little sad too. now even though it hurts I'll hold these happy memories close, and walk towards the day you leave my side and go somewhere I don't know. and if the only thing I'm here to do is to take the place of someone else. Then I would rather have been born as a pebble living life all by myself. Cause then we'd understand each other's words and feelings too.And just maybe then the me I am wouldn't ever have known you.All I ever wanted is to pour out all my thoughts and to let you know just how I feel.Even so I go and lie telling you that every thought I have is secret.I don't earn your praises all I ever am is cowardly I don't know why you stay here by my side So why? Oh why? Oh why?Even though the pain never ends and pulls me apart you smile there beside me.All I ever wanted to do was reach out to you and say that I was happy.And at once the world seems to blur and melt all away as I can feel the tears now. These miracles flooding me won't ever make it leave,Because I can still hear your voice calling out to me.And if you're going to go and lose your way and be all alone without a lightThen I will walk with you through pain and the doubt and stay here right by your side.Pretending it's okay we laugh and smile another day.We keep going on through tragedy as it starts again the same.Even with prayers, and with vows that I make I'm haunted by these horrid dreams.Thinking that someday all the small pains you face and fear will take you far away from me.All I am is useless though you put all of your trust in me I can't even protect what's by my side. 

So why? Oh why? Oh why?Please I pray for all of the nights I can't make it through and drown away in guilty pain.There will be just as many times we laugh hand in hand and cherish every new day.Cause with you the world seems alive and colored and bright now even if I close my eyes.For someone so precious oh what ever could I do?Hey is it alright if I keep calling out to you?When at first I was born into this world we're living inI had screamed and cried aloud to vanish and disappear.Ever since those dreadful days I always have been searchingFor the one I'd someday meet.You're the person that I need.Even though the pain never ends and pulls me apart you smile there beside me.All I ever wanted to do was reach out to you and say that I was happy.And at once the world seems to blur and melt all away as I can feel the tears now.These miracles flooding me won't ever make it change Because I can still hear your voice calling all the same. 

Meri fell asleep and I sighed. I picked him up and laid him on the bed.
I went to leave and I turned around and whispered.

'Hey is it alright if I keep calling out your name?'

Then I closed the door.