god
bipolar disorder
sounds funny at first
well at least u have some good moments
and if there a really good moment
there has to be equally bad one
and now that this great thing is behind me
i'm scared
i know that some terrible shit is going to happen
and i start to realise that its starting
i notice a small difference in what i do
in what i say
in what i think
and when a week ago i was crying because i had to say goodbye to one of the most amazing people i've met
now i'm sitting on my bed in the middle of the night thinking about where to get drugs so i can forget how to breathe
