My Poison

Chapter 3

I just finished my final class of the day and was heading back to my dorm. The cold air nipped at my arms and I pulled my jacket closer to my skin. I remember my dad always wrapping me up in his jacket when I was cold. He would tell me that "he couldn't let the cold get to his baby girl." As if it were an enemy and he was my protector . I smiled gently at the memory of my dad. Any happy memory of him had seemed to slip away these last few years. It was nice to have one resurface every now and then and it seemed to be happening a lot today.

"Hey look who made it through her first day" I was met by my roommate as we both approached our dorm door together. "You say that like I was going to drop out on the first day" I replied . "Yeah well that's honestly what I was expecting, especially if you were late to Hopkins Class." She looked at me like she was waiting for my to spill every detail. Like she wanted to celebrate my screw up. I thought about my reply for a minute before I gave it to her. "I wasn't late, everything was fine" I vaguely answered. A smile came across her face as if she knew how my first day had actually went. "That's not what Jax said. " "and who is Jax?" I rudely snapped. I hated the thought of anyone talking about me . "My friend. He said you came in to class high, and that he couldn't get you to pay attention. It's funny, I didn't peg you as a stoner." Her smile grew with every word. It was like she loved to be in other peoples business, or she loved their misery, I couldn't tell. It became obvious to me that Jax was the guy I sat next to in class , the cigarette guy. "Of course someone like that would be your friend, you really have a type huh" the smile on her face was gone as soon as the words came out of my mouth. "What the hell is that suppose to mean?" Before I could even began to explain, or apologize, or even argue with her, she started again. "I suppose you have a type too huh? The spoiled rich kids? The ones with a perfect family, perfect gpa, perfect house, perfect life? The ones who have mommy and daddy's money to fall back on? Their hand to hold?-"

As she talked about me my stomach began to hurt. It was every stereotype I had been for my entire life. The stereotypes that couldn't be further from the truth. I was none of those yet to everyone I was all of them. If she only knew what my life was really like, who I really was. But I wasn't going to explain myself, I never felt the need to. Here lately I didn't care much for impressions anyways. I couldn't make myself give a damn what people thought of me.

"- Hell your mom brought you here to college, in your sophomore year. If that doesn't scream spoiled I don't know what -" I had enough. I cut her off. "Just shut up okay. I get it. I think you've made your point" I sat down on my bed , and grabbed my textbook from bio out to study. I could feel her burning a hole through with me her eyes. "So what, you're not going to defend yourself?" She was expecting me to scream at her. To tell her she was wrong about me, and to prove to her that I was indeed all of those things by the way I react. But I didn't give her that reaction she wanted, and she was mad. "No I'm not" I didn't look up from my book.

There was a knock at the door saving me from the awkward argument happening between me and .. I realized I don't even know her name. I looked up to see the tall, dark headed, bright blue eyed boy from class. He rolled his eyes as he looked at me. "Wow Silver you didn't tell me the square from my class was your roommate." His huge grin on his face was mocking me. "Yeah I didn't realize the preppy bitch you mentioned was this preppy bitch"
"Quit talking about me like I'm not right here." I was beginning to become so angry with her. How could I be stuck with her as my roommate? I couldn't possibly get anyone else?

"Wow someone's a little feisty. Not what I was expecting" the boy in the doorway smirked more. "Yeah you'll notice I'm not anything like what you expected. I'm tired of trying to get that point across" he threw up his hands like he was surrendering and just gently nodded his head at me. "I guess we'll see"
"Yeah maybe you could prove me wrong about you too" I smirked back at him. His eyebrows wrinkled with confusion. "And what is there to prove wrong?"
"Maybe you're not the smartass, stoner, to young to care, wanna be drop out I thought you were. But I wouldn't count on it. All my bets are on the fact that you definitely are all of those things"

He ran his hand through the back of his hair as he bit his lip trying not to smile. "Like I said, I guess we'll see." "I don't even know either of your names"
My roommate rolled her eyes but still responded "I'm Silver, this is Jax"
"Wow such punk names. You definitely aren't going to prove me wrong huh" my roommate cracked a smile for once at my comment. "Hey crazy question but would you be down to hangout with us tonight?" The look on her face sketched me out. Was she serious or was this an attempt to humiliate me? Seeing as two minutes ago she was flipping her shit on me for being a "spoiled preppy bitch" . I studied her face hoping to figure out what her angle was.

"So? Do you want to or not?" She asked again. "If you want a chance to prove us wrong, and us a chance to prove you wrong, then come" Jax chimed in. I twiddled my thumbs a little in my lap, trying to decide if I should play along. I didn't want to turn them down and prove them right. But I didn't want to tag along on a night that was made to humiliate me either. After a long though I stopped messing with my thumbs and smiled. "Why the hell not. What are we doing?" A smile grew across both their faces and my gut was screaming at me to change my decision. What was I doing? There was no apology, we hadn't fixed the wrong foot we had gotten off on. I should know better than to give in. But something in me wanted me to be apart of their group so badly.

"What? Seriously what are we doing tonight?" I asked again. "It's a game we play. Out on this old abandoned farm a few miles off campus. There's a few others coming too. It's fun don't worry" silver nodded her head towards me as if I'm suppose to just accept that vague explanation. What the hell had I just agreed to?