You laid on the bed next to Ethan, staring at the ceiling while getting lost in your thoughts.
Ethan shifted closer to you grabbing your hand resting it on his chest. The light had been turned off about 3 hours ago, but you weren't looking forward to sleeping anytime soon. The bright sapphire moonlight infiltrated through the window curtains, lightning up the dark room just enough for you to have a good look at Ethan's features.
"E?"
He groans in response, letting out a big "mhm"
"I can't sleep"
"Yeah me neither"
"Dude I heard you snore just an hour ago"
He chuckled slightly turning around to face you.
"Want to talk?" He suggests as he rubs his tired eyes.
"Yeah, i just feel like life is being a bitch to me"
"How come?"
"I just feel like nothing has been going my way, like every time I try to be happy I'm just scared to enjoy it because I overthink too much how that happiness might go away any second.
Also like I'm trying to be someone I'm not everyday to try and satisfy people. Not feeling good enough for you or others. Like I am a big failure.
And then there are just other days in which I feel way over the top, like I am the absolute best and nobody can top me. Like everyday is a big fat great day, and I'm just happy to be me, Ya know?"
He always kept his eyes glued to you, paying close attention to every word you said.
You liked that, His full attention.
He sighed and scrunched his nose making a 'thinking' face.
"I have the perfect solution to that" He insisted confidently
"Yeah? And what is that"
There was a long pause
"Tickles!" He screams throwing himself on top of you tickling you in every spot he knew would make you laugh hysterically .
You kick your feet up and down and motion a "no" with your head, not being able to speak from the adrenaline you were being given.
"Stop!" You manage to let out.
He suddenly stops and plops himself next to you once again, this time closer.
"nah but on a serious note, you really shouldn't be scared or worried of feeling that way. We all feel like that at some point. But I really promise it will be fine, I promise. You'll go through this. Tell me — how are you going to be genuinely happy if what you're thinking is 'when will sadness come again?' Enjoy every moment to the fullest and don't worry about the future, live in your present! You're also not a failure I reassure you, but I guess you already knew that. You are enough, trust me. I am very happy you got to tell me all that. It's really special to me, thank you. I love you.
You smiled at him and leaned in for a small peck.
"I love you"
He moves you against him in a spoon position, placing his arms around you. It made you feel protected.
"This is one of my happy moments" You confess giving his hand a light squeeze.
"You are all my happy moments"
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For anybody who needed to hear that. :-D
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That shit bomb^ How didn't I listen to it before
Sorry if this has any typo errors I really didn't check.
