Runaway

Be careful what you wish for...

RUNAWAY

Bobby's POV

*Sighs* another day again with all these problems. I wonder what hanbin's doing right now. It's been months since the scandal came out and ruined our group. I thought this year would be ours... if only those people stop harassing our company, this wouldn't have happened. Tonight's our first night here in Japan preparing for our upcoming concerts.

We faced a lot of obstacles since day 1, what more now?

I looked up the sky and watch how gloomy this night is. Haah... I wish we could all breathe. I wonder what would my life be if I were to be a normal person. You know, not an idol , not a rapper. But, wow can't even imagine being NOT like this in the first place. This is MY DREAM! Damn.

I chuggled the beer in my hand as I walk towards my bed at the hotel we're staying. How long we will stay here ? Few more days, weeks or I dunno. I don't really care doing concert day by day... what concerns me the most is -we're going to perform without our leader. That sucks BIG TIME.

I lay at my bed looking at the ceiling thinking of the past events that happened in my life, my family, our group. I feel suffocated. I want to breathe. I want to be free. I want to runaway even for just a day or two. But how?

Hah! Let's just sleep. Maybe the alcohol is finally kickin' coz' I already feel dizzy. And then I closed my eyes.

I woke up feeling sober. I went to the bathroom and took a shower and fixed myself to have breakfast. I thought I would wake up a little late but my body clock is still kicking so I'm up at five am. Tried to knock other member's room, but no one answered so I think they might still be sleeping. Feeling hungry, I went to the restaurant downstairs and ordered coffee and some bread. I'm hungry, but I don't feel like having a heavy meal right now. I just sat there wearing my cap and shades afraid that there are some fans lurking around. It's not that I hate to see them nor I don't want to, it's just that, I don't really feel well, I don't like having conversations to anyone right now, I want to be alone. I look outside the window and witnessed how busy Japanese people are. It's just past five but there are a lot of people walking around the street already, maybe going to their jobs.

I look at my watch. Tapping my fingers on the table I decided to get up. Put my mask on and leave the restaurant. I decided to take a short walk, there's still time before our manager and staff get up, so I think this wouldn't be a problem.

I passed by a lot of stalls opening up to do their business for today. Elderly Smiling at me even though I can't smile back as I'm wearing my mask for safety, so I just bow to them a little for some respect. If I could only go to a place where no one can recognize me, I would love to go there quickly. I want to eat without a hat nor shades that will make me unrecognizable, I want to walk without a mask on and greet every people I meet at the streets. Talk with them about randmon things, wow I think its not possible right now, neh?

I saw a park and decided to go there. I walked by a few people at the entrance and saw a beautiful line up of trees which is very unusual to a busy neighborhood here. Hmmmm, I just shrugged it off and enjoy the view of unbloomed sakura trees while walking, I saw a bench and sat there. I look around to see if there's someone around but found no one. Strange but how relaxing huh? I decided to take off my mask, shades and my cap. I exhaled deeply and filled my lungs with fresh air. Wow! This is somewhat — creepy? Nah! Perfectly fine! I hope I could enjoy this moment for a few more minutes. I hope no one could interrupt me, so that I could gather my thoughts before our concert tonight. I rested my head at the backrest of the bench I'm sitting at and closed my eyes. I'm kinda enjoying the cool breeze here...

I think I dozed off... Did I? I am trying to wake up my thoughts as I feel a little weird. You know the feeling that someone's looking at you? Hmmmmm... I tried to open one of my eyes to see if there's someone in front of me. No one. I stretched my arms and fixed myself up. Yawning, I looked at my watch to see how long I dozed off... Huh? 6:15am. I tapped my watch to see if it's working but it seemed to stopped. Hmmm it's working just fine this morning though? Weird. Since I didn't bring my phone, I'm walking fast now to go back to the hotel. Our manager would be angry if he found out that I went out without his permission so I needed to hurry.