I love....my brother?

The Past Is A Present

14 Years Ago 

"Wait up Hayden! I can't run that fast", I yelled after him. Despite the fact I was older he was still faster. I ran to catch up to him struggling to catch my breath. He stopped running and turned to look at me. He had a big grin on his face. 

"It's not my fault you're so slow Lukie!" I walked the rest of the way while he waited there. When I got up next to him he laughed. 

"You need to excercise more. You're too small", Hayden said poking me in the gut. I yelped and he laughed again. He tried to give me jumper cables but I jumped back. He pouted and made his hands like crab claws.

"Ima get you", he said coming towards me. My eyes widened.

"No! Stay back!" Hayden caught me but instead of giving me jumper cables he tickled me. I was practically struggling on the ground while he was on top of me tickiling away.

"Torture", I screamed and he smirked.

"Torture? You wanna see torture", he said in his evil voice. I screeched when he gave me a wet willy. Oh god ew! So wet and slimy! In my poor ear! 

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(Present Day)

 I sat there. Quietly. I had to let him. Because if not Silia would kill Mona. Or maybe Hayden would. But either way Mona would die. I knew my family well enough to know that if they put their minds to something it would soon be accomplished. I sighed and shook my head. I didn't want to lose my virginity. Especially not to Hayden of all people. My blood sibling. This was terrible. I had to choose one. I decided. I'd have to lose my virginity. There was no other way. I thought about how Mona would feel if she knew. She'd hate me most likely. Man. Nothing I ever did was good enough. I made one person happy and with the same action I made someone angry. The door opened and I looked to see Silia. 

"Have you decided", she asked. I nodded and stood up. 

"What's you decision?" I held my breath and thought one last time if the decision I was making was the right one. I figured it was so I accepted things how they were and she led me towards Hayden's empty room. 

"Wait here", she said closing the door. I sat on the bed and looked around. My fingers mindlessly traced circles in the sheet and I waited. Was Hayden coming back? Of course he was. I was here sitting in his room ready to be...fucked. Wasn't I? I lied back and the bed felt cold. I turned onto my side and hugged one of his pillows to my body. It smelled like him. Even though I was shivering from fear I missed him. I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep. 

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I came home later than expected and Silia was pissed. I apologized and she left to go to her friend's house. I headed for room trying to contain my excitment. I pushed open the door and Lucas was lying there hugging my pillow. He was sleeping and I thought he looked adorable. I didn't want to wake him up. I tip toed over and planted a kiss on his forehead. Then on his lips. The kiss woke him up. His eyes fluttered open and I pulled away. 

"Hey beautiful", I whispered. He blushed. He looked over at the alarm clock and squeezed his eyes closed as if trying to adjust his vision. He looked back at me. 

"Did you miss me", I asked. He sat up and yawned. He was silent and looked back at the alarm. Finally he nodded and wrapped his thin arms around my stomach. 

"Of course I did! I missed you so much", Lucas said. I smiled and nuzzled his neck. When I pulled back I grabbed his wrist and looked into his eyes. 

"Lucas...." 

"Hayden...are you doing this because you don't like Mona? Or because...." 

"Because", I said. His eyes widened slightly but then narrowed. 

"Okay....go ahead then.....think of it....as a....welcome back gift..." He smiled weakly as I pushed him back down onto the bed gently and climbed over him. He reached up and stroked my cheek. He looked off the side of the room and back at me. 

"How badly do you want this", he asked. I smirked. 

"So badly I offered a human life in exchange for your innocence. You won't regret choosing this...I promise you. I'll make you wish you'd done it sooner." He stared at me. He wasn't sure whether to be scared or happy. He just lowered his arms making a cross with his body and smiled at me. 

"Do whatchu'd like", he said sheepishly. I smiled back. He was giving me a free pass to touch him. I reached down and undid his buttons. He closed his eyes. The smile never leaving his face.