Love in war male soldier reader x female ghost

why I'm really like this. . .

Y/n POV

I jolt awake with my head pounding as if my skull was caving in on itself as memories before vokuta flood my mind before the bay of pigs, before nam, before vokuta, before I was captured, my old squad. . .checkmate. . .that was the last thing I told them what I told everyone. . .I need air maybe a cigarette or something. I get up much to rylees displeasure which I frown at before gently waking her. "Wake up hun. . ." I said softly as her beautiful eyes fluttered open and a small smile grew on her face "good morning handsome" she replied gently pecking my lips. Once again my head pounded, I gripped my head and my lover wrapped me in a warm hug with a worried expression "babe? What's wrong?" She said as I looked at her panting. "I. . .it's time you heard the rest of my history before "then"" I said looking down as she held my hand gently. "Whatever it is I'll still love you the same" she said as I smiled before grabbing my phone and asking the captain to gather our teammates in which he almost automatically responded in approval. I sighed and stood up getting my casual clothes on along with my mask and of course giving rylee another piggy back ride to the mess hall where we were all meeting. As we arrived at the mess hall all our friends and teammates gathered around in their respective seats and I stood in front of them and took a deep breath and spoke "there's more to my story then you all know. . .how I became. . ."this"" I said in a low tone as one of the recruits walked in full of ego and tried to shove me and yelled "this what?! A coward?! A little bitch playin tough?! Huh?!" As he said this i grabbed his throat and slammed him into a wall cracking the wall and shattering his bones. I wasn't done no no no hehe "this" is what I am a freak a monster and he'll be the first to see it in a while. I pulled off my mask and I growled before saying "LOoK InTo mY EyES" my voice demonic and distorted. He looked into my eyes seeing the horrors I've seen seeing a portion of the nightmares and trauma I live with. . .the pain I can re-create. He screamed in fear as my allies stayed back before mason, reznov, and woods tried to pull me off him but to no avail and I keep staring him and the eyes before slamming him to the ground and punt kicking his jaw before grabbing my pistol knowing it wasn't loaded, shoving it in his hands and shoving it against his head. "DO IT!! DO IT LIKE I TRIED TO YEARS AGO!!!!! DO WHAT MADE ME THIS FREAK BENEATH A MASK!!!! DO IT!!!!" I yelled as he cried holding the gun and pulling the trigger only for it to click and him to look at me in shock beforehand sobbing on the ground. I pull him up and grab the back of his head "tommorow we start training your gonna be a soldier not a body in a pile because he thought he was better then anybody else. I won't let you be like me." I said as he stopped crying instead shaking knowing I was trying to help him which lead to him hugging me like a son does to his father. "Y-y-yes sir" he said before running off to get ready. I sighed putting my mask back on and looking at everyone who was looking in shock. ""That" is what I am" I said before sitting down rubbing my temples. "Now who wants to know how I became like this. . .?" I asked as they all looked at eachother before nodding and leaning in. "Years ago before vokuta, before me and rylee, before mason, woods, and reznov, before 141 was even made there was an unstoppable force an army that marched but was never seen, an army that had no hesitation, no fear, no hatred, just honor and will. It all started when a massive army of 600 tried to take a hospital I lead an army of 300. . .they cut us down like wheat to a skyth. The first 5 days we were cut down to 200, 15 more days past and we were chopped to 16. I didn't think I would survive nor my army so I sent one of my own under the blanket of darkness to lead the hospital occupants to saftey, we laid there that night underneath the bodies of our fallen brothers. Blood and sand covered us sticking to us like a new skin, changing us. . .eroding us. When the enemy drew near we were like a force that couldn't be seen a mist that consumed everything in it's path. first we used our guns and when they ran dry we use our knives and when the blade ran dull we used our hands. The army of 600 hundred was cut to 571 the first week with our full army and in that single day with 15 men there was one enemy left wondering the desert aimlessly. . .traumatised. when a helo found him and picked him up they asked him what happened and he only said one word "ghost" and from then on out my army grew from the shadows never scene only leaving behind fields of Bodies in our wake until one day a ghost from my past caught up with us and started hunting us. . .rorke was his name. . .broken and poisoned he hunted us but failed after two of my men, my friends, my family were shot, tortured, and killed. I hunted him for years until I caught up with him with a few of my men Keegan, merrick, Elias, hesh, and Logan. We fought through a train of soldiers with men in space firing from their station and one word is all it took to end it all. . ."checkmate" I forced them all to bail so I didn't risk them dieing because of my hunt. Rorke and me fought after killing every bastard in there he slashed my face and had a revolver to my skull and then "checkmate" and my men in space fired on the train and I was close to dieing but I was glad I was able to save all my men from him. But my end wasn't there instead I dragged myself out ever since then I've lead the army as "the ghost" everyone thinks I'm dead but I slowly came out of the shadows and revealed myself to my old teammates then I fell into other operations like nam and castro and vokuta. . . through it all I was eroded, molded, re-born as this "thing" everyone fears. . .now you all know" I said finishing up my last as they all looked shocked about who I was. Rylee stood up and walked over to me and-

Hey everyone silver hear I'm back and I'll try to get this story up and running without being awful heh anyways merry Christmas or any other holidays you celebrate like Hanukkah goodnight everyone this is silver signing off