The Last Wind

Regrets! Mistakes?

For all the beautiful ladies in my life who save me in way that I can't explain.

Song up there for the feels:

'Hello'  by Adele

Sybell's P.O.V

I wake up to the same sound of wind chime that woke me up last year at the same time: 4:00am. Once mellifluous but now nothing but a haunting reminder. I remove the curtains and all I see everywhere is pitch dark. 'Wow, I can't believe one year has passed already' I utter to myself. I go to the washroom and see myself in the mirror: same face, same scars, same story just a different me. I stare into my own eyes, these dark brown eyes, how they once cherished me, now they're just guilt, pure guilt. I wonder if that night I would've answered the call, maybe things wouldn't have turned out like this. I jerk this thought off my mind and prepare for shower.

I've always liked cold showers, even in the freezing winter. After showering, I take out my clothes for today's event and text Elena. 'Good morning, you must be sleeping right now, wake up before I come for you', I try to lighten the mood. I know she must be awake because unlike me she can't sleep on a day like this, especially when it's her performance today.

I go downstairs for breakfast. My mom isn't here. She went for some business meeting in Paris some two days back. She is returning today. The thought of my mother returning gives me comfort. She's the only one here who understands me after Elena and Eyla. I decide to prepare a little  welcome back party for my mother in the evening.

I look for my brother, Nick everywhere but I don't find him anywhere. I look for Lia as well and she is also nowhere to be seen. 'Nick must've gone there', I utter to myself. I make some pancakes and a strong black coffee. I need it to wipe away the tiredness I will feel today, though it may not work.

After having breakfast I go to my room to check if Elena has texted back. 'I'm already up, out for a jog, wanna join?' I text her back 'Sure, will wait for you around Green Mount Park.' I change into my jogging clothes and head out.

On my way I see Nick coming back with Lia, our cat. I walk upto him and almost scream at him, 'Where are you coming from this early? It's 05:00am dude.' He ignores my question and hands over Lia to me and continues walking. 'I know today completes one year of my mistake, thanks for reminding me.' I say.

On this he turns and gives me a pitiful smile and then again starts walking. 'At least take Lia with you, I'm out for jogging' I shout. At once he walks towards me with an angered but hurt look and takes Lia and then walks away. I watch him until he fades in the thin fog of the morning.

I take out my phone from my pocket and call Elena. She as usual picks up my call in one go, 'I don't think I'll be able to make it up to the event today, I'm sorry' I say in a low monotone. I hear her sigh at the other end of the line. Just as I am about to hang up, I hear her sobbing. 'Hey! What's wrong? Where are you? I'm coming there, Hello! ' I couldn't even complete my sentence and she hung up. I try calling her back but her phone is not reachable. A pit of worry begins to grip my abdomen. I again try to call her but again same response.

I run upto Green Mount Park, where we agreed to meet today as well as that day. I regret choosing this location but then again we can never escape the inevitable. I just sit there and pin the earplugs in my ears and I search 'BTS calm music playlist', my escape from the inevitable. I listen to it while thinking about her words 'If it weren't for you Julia would not have taken that step ever. It's all because of you. You are the only one responsible here.' These words ring through my ears. All of a sudden the music becomes intolerable and my heart accelerates. I feel like drowning.'Help! I can't breathe! Help! I am drowning!. I can't sit straight, my mind is unable to think straight. Amidst this chaos I try to imagine myself with her, the way she held my hands, her warmth. It vanishes as I collapse.

I'm sorry if this chapter is short. I'm still trying. Please comment if you like my story and want me to continue it. Thank you to all the readers. I love y'all.