I stood still as the rain poured on, leaving me wet to the core. I let the tears come forth, hidden by the drops falling from the sky hiding my feelings from the rest of the world. I didn't care about the world anymore, everything and everyone had lost its meaning. I took a step towards the edge of the cliff.
All because of one girl who changed my life forever the day I met her. I loved her so so much but fucking life had to interrupt and remind me that I couldn't have her, the only true love I had ever had. I walked another step forward nearing the end.
I couldn't stand it anymore, every time I ever felt happy, ever felt even a tiny sliver of hope that everything is gonna be fine life had to take that moment away from me. All my happy memories came rushing to me relaxing my whole body and calming my raging emotions. But now I gave up. I accepted defeat, admitted that life had won, that this was the end of the road for me. I took the final step forward and looked down at the sea before me, fierce and thrashing, hiding the rocks beneath
As I prepared to jump, hesitation arose within me somewhere but when her face, her beautiful face came to my mind, all the hesitation was replaced by the certainty that this was the only thing left to do. Just then a voice came from behind me, her voice, which spoke just one word.
"Alex!"
I stopped and looked back, my eyes darting around searching for her. My eyes settled on her figure standing in the rain-drenched just like me, her pale-yellow eyes staring at me, straight at my soul.
"Alex."
This time she said it more softly. Hearing her sweet voice, a force washed over me, and under its control, I forgot for a moment what I came here to do. But then all the memories came rushing back and the pain reminded me of my goal.
"Alex, don't do this. I need you. You are the only one I have. Please forgive me. Come back to me."
I tried to convince myself that maybe it was just my mind playing tricks on me, trying to make me stop but I knew it was real, every aspect of her being was real, her voice, her cat eyes shining in the dark, everything.
I don't know what to do anymore. This wasn't part of the plan. Her showing up like this to stop me had completely jumbled up my thoughts. I wasn't sure what to do or what not to do in this circumstance. I looked up at her, straight in the eye, and asked her, "Why are you here? Why after you did this to me? After you broke my heart".
Lightning crackled around us, shining a light onto our faces. In that one second, the look on her face became visible to me. Her face portrayed the regret and sadness that filled her from within, the pain that she too was suffering. My stomach whirled, and a rumble passed in my stone heart. The heart that she turned to stone. No. I could not turn soft now. She inflicted on me the most torturous pain I had ever felt. She broke me. But none of that mattered to me. What mattered to me was that she betrayed me.
"I am sorry. I am so sorry, please just give me one chance. One chance to explain it to you.", her voice cracked as she spoke to me, eyes brimming with tears," I can never take back what I did to you, but trust me I would never even think of betraying your love, your faith."
Rage filled me as I shouted, "Trust you? That's exactly what I did, and look where it got me. Stop trying to get me to listen, I don't have the energy to judge the truth from the lie anymore. ". I turned away from her, surer of my decision, " You know everything about me. You know my past, you know what I have done and what I have suffered, yet you did it still. What more do I have to live for?"
"Don't give up on life. You may not want to hear my words but please don't do this.", she begged me, wanting to stop me from taking this step.
Angry, I turn around swiftly to face her, "And why do you- ", my leg slipped and I fell backward, only there was nothing to hold me but air.
"Alex NOOOOO", she rushed forward.
I started falling, with no thoughts in my mind, just the horrified look on her face staring down at me, the last thing that I'll ever see.
YOU ARE READING
Broken Love
RomanceLove. Trust. Care. Things that have always failed me. Only one stayed with me through everything I have gone through. Pain. It's an old friend now, always around with me. But now even pain is gone, nothing remains anymore. Is there any reason to l...