new job..new boss..new love interest? a jikook story ON HOLD

well, because I don't see myself updating for a while..

A/N hello there! Well as you can tell from the chapter title, I don't plan on updating the story for a while but I thought I could do this as a filler until i post a new chapter. And I do apologize for not updating, the only reason this was published was because I had planned to post it after the next chapter but my back pain is a bitch and until I get surgery, I will be in too much pain to move, let alone bend over a note book for 45+ minutes.

So, shall we continue?

It won't be much, it's just a little bit about myself and the reason for why/what inspired me to write books and the type of books I prefer to write.

Background/family

Ok well, my name is Cialyn (sea-al-en) I am 13.
My birthday is the 25 of August. (2006)
I am a Virgo
I have 5 siblings(one older bro, one older sis two younger bros and one younger sis)
My parents are divorced as of july this year.
I live in the U.S. And I have moved states 4 times, moved houses about every year, and went to a different school every new school year.

Social life

I don't really have anyone to call a best friend because I move so often.

I have social Anxiety so I find it hard to make friends and im always super paranoid that the friends i make won't like me for who I am, therefore I prefer to just be alone. I feel safer that way.

I don't like people yelling out of anger, I usually get panic attacks when people yell and occasionally I get a seizure.

I'm probably the loudest/maybe the most annoying and eye catching person in the room but reality, I like being quiet and kinda being off to the side..hiding or writing.

Fears

I don't really have a physical fear like spiders or getting shots but I'm terrified of disappointing people.

Dislikes

I hate clutter, disappointing people, people yelling, sleeping by myself (i get nightmares), and people who nag at others without really having a full understanding of what's going on in the person's life.

Why I write?

I write because I don't exactly have a person I can go to at god awful hours of the night just to get my thoughts out. I also write because when I'm writing as an anonymous author..or the reader doesn't actually know who i am, I can write out all my uncensored, raw emotions and not be judged for it.

Why do you write the way you write?

I typically like to write gay novels that don't have happy endings because

1) I want to shed light on LGBTQ+ and through my writing, I want to convey that non-heterosexual love is love as well and it can be just as beautiful, or just as horrible as heterosexual love.

2) I prefer my stories don't have a happy ending because, well, do you know anyone who found their Mr. Or Ms.right and lived a perfectly happy life with no argument or problems?
No. You haven't.
I write to show that the world is imperfect as are the people who walk it's streets. Not everyone gets their happy ending.
Sorry if that was offensive to you in any way and please, call me out on it if you think im wrong.

Well, that's pretty much it. My life isn't the most interesting. If you want a little more info about me, I suggest you check my bio. If you want to ask me a specific question that I haven't answered, don't hesitate to message me about it.

That's the one and only me. I was a child model for like a month and decided I hated it. But here is one of the photos I had gotten from the company.

As always thank you for reading and waiting and supporting this story.💜💜

I'll update as often as I can, please forgive me for taking so long though.