why i think he stopped loving me

R 5

I have always been in love with the idea of someone looking at me like im everything to him. That's all I ever wanted. I used to think love could do anything. I've noticed he looks at other girls now. It pains me and makes me want to cry thinking of it. I thought maybe if you loved a person enough you wouldn't need to look elsewhere. I don't look at anyone. I can't confront him in public because im afraid of sounding crazy. When I brought it up to him he said he would stop. I explained how it made me feel and for some time I thought he understood. I was wrong. Everytime I would see him i would spend hours getting ready did my hair, makeup ,and picked a cute outfit. It was all for him. Everything I did all my effort was for nothing because his head still turned. I feel useless. I feel so ugly. He makes me feel worthless.