greta (kiszka) one shots/preference

are you bored yet - sam

sam rolled off of you as you were both a panting mess. he had just gotten back from a two month tour and he was, well, excited to see you. you met sam freshman year in algebra, he had been seated next to you and from that moment on you two have been inseparable. you were both each others first. first date, first real relationship, first kiss, and the first time you two have ever had sex.

now being 24 sam is still the only person you have ever been with, and until recently only wanted to be with. you could feel the two of you drifting apart, especially with the bands newest album which included new tours, interviews, and new fans. you couldn't shake the feeling that you wanted something more. it pains you to even think that.

"hey, you okay?" sam whispered through a heavy breath. he shook you out of your daze. "yeah just thinking i guess" you said as you turned to look at him.

"about what?" he questioned. you couldn't tell him. he would be heartbroken as much as you. you just shook your head.

"whats wrong?" he said as he began to sit up on his elbows turning his body towards you. a few tears left your face.

"do you feel like you're missing out on life?" you questioned. he looked taken back for minute before his face began to contort and you could see his eyebrows knit together. "babe. what's going on?" he questioned a little bit louder than he wanted to.

"we are the only thing we've ever known since high school. doesn't that scare you?" you said back. "sam you know i love you more than words can say but what happens if we break up? wouldn't you regret us being together just to have it shatter?".

he laid back down in frustration as you saw his index finger and thumb scrunch the bridge of his nose. "i mean goddammit y/n are you saying you don't want to be together anymore?". you choked back a sob as his voice kept growing with every word. "what, were the last 10 years boring to you? don't they mean anything? you're the only one i've ever wanted to be with!".

"sammy, we haven't been by ourselves since freshman year! how do you know that this isn't what you want?" you said as you started to sit up grabbing the blanket to cover your naked torso. "what if you realize this isn't what you wanted at all when we are 30 and then it's too late?".

you began to sob as you started moving off the bed. "y/n, what are you doing?" he asked in an agitated voice. "sam. i think we need to be on our own for a little while." you replied back as you began to slip on your clothes that were discarded on the floor.

"i swear to god. y/n you can't just do this! i know what i want and it's to be with you!" he yelled.

"no its not sam. how can you know that and never have had anything else?" you yelled back just as loud. as you slipped on your shoes you began to stand up and walk out of the bedroom you two shared. you could hear him getting up to run after you.

as you got to the front door he was right behind you. "maybe once we have had our own time. our own new experiences without each other we can be together" you said throughout sniffles. he just looked at you with the saddest eyes you have ever seen. you lifted your hand to stroke his right cheek. you kissed his soft lips and pulled away quickly to open the door.

"bye sammy" you said as you left the apartment.

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a/n - this is my first fic!! it is based on the song are you bored yet by the wallows. uh i know its probably not good, but i would love feedback! also this is supposed to be lowercase so :*