My cold toes brush against the frigid windowsill, the noose loosely tied aorund my neck like an oversized fashion statement.
Does this mean I'm crazy? It must, since only crazy people kill themselves.
My mind wanders, looking for an escape, but I've been through all of the options a million times. There is no escape.
Tears linger in my eyes as I consider my fate. This wasn't meant to be. I was meant to be free.
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I walk into school on my first day of freshman year. I do my best to hide my insecurities as I search for my group of friends. As I scan the room, I catch a glimpse of my best-friend-since-kindergarten, Sarah, waving me over. I adjust the sleeves on my brand new shirt before heading over to join the group.
"Hi, Maddie!" Sarah smiles as I approach her. She has grown up over the summer. Her gangly limbs have become toned with muscle, her formerly scrony mid-section is now filled with womanly curves.
Surrounding her are 2 of our other best friends, Charlotte and Sondra.
"Hi guys! You look great," I say, addressing the group.
"Same to you, Madds," Charlotte replies. My self confidence levels begin to go up as I remember that, regardless of our lower class status, we're popular in our class, and we'll soon rule the whole school, just like last year.
I hear the bell ring for first period, which for me is gym, and quickly say goodbye to my friends, except for Sarah, who also has gym, and we rush over to the girl's locker room.
The locker room is filled with 14 year old girls and a faint smell of B.O. mixed with a ton of perfume. Sarah and I sit our book bags in our assigned lockers before changing into our gym clothes. Being in a room with a bunch of half naked girls makes me feel self concious again, and I suddenly feel the need to throw up. Not wanting to embarass myself, I force back the feeling and pull my shirt over my head.
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