Meeting Him in a Coffee Shop ✓

Don't get too attached

We maintain this routine for almost a month. Meeting for coffee, talking, him walking me home, a goodnight kiss on the cheek. I like it but of course, I want more, I want to go further, to do more, but I have to stop myself.

Don't get too attached. I continue to tell myself every day; whenever I see him, whenever we touch, whenever I think about him- which is almost every moment. But I feel myself slowly falling for him...slowly but then all at once.

I close The Fault in our Stars and walk over to my little window and peer outside to the dark gloomy mess that is slowly starting to grow on me. I've been reading too many romance novels and I use that as the only real explanation as to why I'm feeling these emotions towards him; not the fact that I can talk to him about anything and not feel judged, that he understands me better than most everyone, that even in the silence I can feel his care and affection, that I wish time would stop whenever I'm with him, that I couldn't imagine my life without him.

My phone rings, interrupting my thoughts. I look at the clock and know that it is the middle of the night back home so it's not my family. One look at the name flashing on the screen though and my heart flutters.

"Hey!" I say a little too enthusiastically.

"Hey, pretty girl! What're you up to?" he matches my enthusiasm.

"Nothing much, just reading. You?"

It wasn't a normal thing for him to call me randomly during the day. A few texts maybe, but we saved most of our conversations for our daily coffee dates.

"Actually I just got off the phone with my manager and there's something that I wanna talk to you about. In-person. Coffee shop in 15 minutes?"

"I can make it in 10," I say, with still too much excitement.

He laughs, "Don't hurt yourself, pretty girl. See you then."

I hang up and run out the door grabbing my keys. When I'm with him I don't worry about dressing up and making sure everything is nice and in its place. He makes me feel like I'm the prettiest girl in the world, even with sweatpants and hair that hasn't been washed in over a week.

As I race, carefully, to the coffee shop, I tell myself that I'm gonna tell him how I feel today. I'm going to tell him exactly how I feel, how I want to take things further, how I want to continue the relationship, even after I leave for America. I know that all those novels romanticize long-distance relationships and they are probably not real, but I'm ready to put in the work and effort to try and maintain ours. Sure, saving up money will be hard, but those flights will definitely be worth it. Also, with the way he described his job, it seems like he doesn't have to be in London all the time in order to make his YouTube videos and work. The list in my mind of the reasons why we should take this further grows longer as I near the shop.

I walk in and don't see him in our usual spot so I do a little happy dance because I beat him. I order my usual from Joe and take a seat waiting for him.

My order hasn't even come yet and he walks through the door, causing the butterflies to stir. After over a month of seeing him almost every day the butterflies are still there, but we've become decent friends. He rushes over to me excitedly and sits down, looking like he might burst.

"So, you wanted to talk to me about something?" I lead.

"Yes," he moves towards the edge of his seat. "So, I talked to my manager, right. And there's this YouTube event happening in America, well California to be exact, VidCon. And it's in two weeks from when you finish your internship, so you would be home by that time as well, also in California, Pasadena to be exact."

I also move towards the edge of my seat, excitement bubbling in me as I can already start to understand where he is leading with this.

"So, it got me thinking. LA is literally one of the greatest places for a YouTuber like me, there would be people to collaborate with, there would be so many more brand deals, you would be there. I mean, sure my family is here, but I could always visit them. I mean, I live in London anyway and most of my family is at least a three-hour train ride from here. Plus, many of my friends are YouTubers as well, which means they could also fly out to LA all the time and it would only benefit their channels."

He sighs, running his fingers through his mop of hair, gauging my reaction before continuing. "Anyways, what I'm trying to say is, what if tried to make this thing work. Long-term. What if I moved to LA? That way I could be closer to you and we can continue this relationship, with all the strings attached."