Let me tell you a little secret, just between you and me.
Relationships aren't built to last.
And they always, always end in heartbreak. So, for those of you who have by some luck never experienced true heartbreak, I must explain it to you.
Heartbreak is when you love someone who doesn't love you back. It doesn't matter whether there was even a relationship to start with; as long as there is love there must be heartbreak. Now, I'm not talking when you ask out your crush and she says no. I'm talking about when you get to the point when you are so unbelievably, indescribably, completely and totally in love with someone who doesn't feel the same way. Heartbreak feels like someone has taken a hammer and pounded it on your chest a million times a minute. It feels like not knowing if you're going to have the energy to get out of bed ever again. Like your brain doesn't reckognize happiness anymore; doesn't care anymore. Heartbreak feels like you just want to die. Alone. In your bed. Right then and there.
And trust me,I've been there. I never quite explained well enough how much I loved Greyson. I suppose there aren't words to describe it; ours was a different kind of love.. The kind that makes you happy one minute and depressed the next. But he was my first love and I can say I've yet to feel the same way about another person. When things ended with him, I felt like I could just die then and there and no one would miss me. When your heart is broken, you being to stare at yourself a lot, wondering why you weren't good enough. You want so desperately to be loved, but you keep seeing all the little reasons why you'll never be loved. Everyone can tell you as many times as they want that you could do better, but you don't want to do better. You want him.
And only him.
Forever.
You start watching movies like the notebook and the last song and titanic and you'll just sit for hours crying about how you want a love story like there's and how you're so forever alone and youll never be loved, but youre wrong.
Amd you're stupid.
And youre young.
And you make mistakes.
And you will move on.
