It is the worst fucking day of my life! Im losing what matters most to to me and I cant take it. What am i supposed to do when shes gone? Just sit here and act like nothing ever fucking happened…… NO i refuse to let this go but how can i stop it at times like this when my world is falling apart i dont think i can take it but i have to dont i i cant just rid myself of the pain but i can sure in the hell try and keep strong through all this shit. No i cant what the fuck am i doing what the fuck do i plan on doing. with all of this happening and the other shit stacked on im going to die and i dont care. it is about time. all people ever see is my good side maybe a bit of mixed depression no one knows the real me except maybe kyrin but even he doesnt know the full extent of my hatred but this…. this could very well seal the deal seal the deall on my humanity im going to lose this battle finally its been to hard and i think its time i gave up the fight these demons are taking over me and when they finally steal my soul there will be no coming back…. they are taking me slowly and this time ill let them losing her will be the turning point i will lose control i tell her itll be alright but is that true no it isnt ill break and cry but i want her to be happy i cant keep her happy through all this its impossible i want her happiness and id rather her be happy and not with me than sad and hurt with me….. losing her its something I’d never dream of but yet its here happening to me now where will my mind be what state will state will i be in can i really survive without her probably not but shell be happier this way But fuck… therell be no more holding her looking into those perfect eyes hearing her angelic voice no more caressing her face no more small sweet kisses no more her no more me no more us just darkness and pain. I dont want to leave but I may have to… I love my princess and i mean that and i always will love her shes always going to be MY!!!!!!! princess. No one will change that.
