its hard to describe how I feel about you, sometimes I find myself filled with resentment when you cross, but at others I wish you would stay loner. I feel as though we have a love hate relationship as if we her a cat and dog as we are filled with curiosity for one another but yet when we get to close we tend to revert to the ways of pain and fighting. I don't understand how our minds demand dopamine but mine turns on sad music just to keep me away from what brings me joy as fire sets behind. Is this a punishment? I was only 13 when you entered, but with the constant body issues you made me see and the love you blinded I was stuck with you, you lied and made me believe I was alone. Its sad to this day I'm still unsure if I am loved or am I still that naïve little kid wishing for love and turning away from the pain that tells me I'm not.
