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If anyone actually reads this..I'm sorry this will be the biggest piece of shite ever. Well at least I tried 🤷🏼‍♀️
This will be a sad one 🌸

Trigger warnings:pills, suicide, heartbreak
Wc~652
Summary- Alex's crush finds out his true feelings
Short and sweet this one lads (just like Alex)

will x Alex

Alex's pov~
The only sound I could hear was the rain hitting off the window and my mates loud laughter in the room along the hall. Sober. Hearing my mates laughing and having a good time kinda broke my heart, I could feel the pain jabbing into my chest. Jealousy? Most likely. Although I thought about it and I brought this onto myself. Kicking myself away from my own friends.
What hurts more is the distinct laugh of my best friend. Will. The only one who could make me smile on a shitty day or make me laugh even when his jokes are shit. Knowing he doesn't care about me, he probably hasn't had a second thought about my absence. And why should he? He is friends, followers and a beautiful girlfriend. He's strong and gorgeous. Straight.
Everything was in contrast to me. I stray away from those who care. My followers are slowly hating me, I am single and I am broken. I know I Need to stop having a toxic mind yet I can't.
It also doesn't help that all that the hate has been getting worse and my mental health is at its lowest.
I can't swallow down the anxiety I feel anymore and the dread of knowing my friends don't care. Not a second thought would pass their minds if I was to just leave and never come back. This was the dangerous part of my mind that people did not know about.
Knowing I was developing a massive crush on my best friend. Knowing he would never look at me like that or love me or even fucking care..

"Al mate, ya gonna come out ya room and see es like? Or are ya gonna just mope about all day?"
Fuck sakes, of course he would ask the most awkward questions.
"Yeah will I'm fine" "don't feel well mate but I'm okay"
Hoping to sound enthusiastic but ill. He wouldn't, no he would not come in, it's okay, stop overthinking. Breathe Alex.

"Hiya mate right I've came in bec-" "fucking hell Alex what's up with ya? You look like utter death?"

That's when the tears started to fall.
"Will I like someone, they don't like me back, I know they don't and I feel like shit and I don't want to think anymore he's my best friend and I just can't cope not letting him know I love him, Will"

Fuck I can't breathe, I can't breathe. Shit. He knows.
Shaking I pulled my self onto my bed and curled into a ball, not wanting to face Will.
"Just let him know Alex"
His hand moved to my hair, petting me, comforting me.
"Let him know and I'm sure he'll react well"

Here goes nothing.

"Will I'm In love you you"
Fuck.

"Al, howa man."

"Tell me you don't love me"
The tears streamed down my face and I watched will frown.

"I'm sorry Alex"

Looking down, I should've not let him in,
"Please don't apologise will"
Please do.

"I don't love you Alex"
No one loves me, no one cares
"Thankyou will"

I watched with tears eyes as Will exited my room. And I watched my shaky hands reach for my pills. And I watched myself in the mirror as I heard my friends laughing again, then a door slam.
I watched as I swallowed the pills.
And I watched my door swing open and I lost sight and the world turned black.

I watched my friends father around and begging someone to call an ambulance.
And I heard my last breathe.
Going
Going
Gone...