IDOLiSH7 Gaku x TransMale Reader

Chapter 8

You slightly shifted to your side, which caused your ribs to shoot out in pain, and ultimately cause you to wake up. "Shit..." You had forgotten to take off your chest binder last night and ended up sleeping in it. You had also forgotten about it once you took your nap. Which resulted in you wearing it for 24+ hours; which wasn't good.

You went into your bathroom and took the binder off. You struggled a little, since your ribs were in so much pain, but once you got the binder off your chest your ribs felt lighter in a sense. You hid your binder in the dirty clothes basket by your bathroom door. You walked passed your bed and to your mini fridge. You grabbed an ice pack and gently let it relieve your ribs.

After about 20 minutes of you icing your sides, you heard a knock at your door. You slightly panicked and rushed to your feet. 'what do I do? fuck,what do I do?!' You couldn't put your binder back on. 'Well fuck.. I'm screwed.. '

"Who Is it?" You asked, voice a little shaken.

"It's me, Gaku."

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You took in a few deep breaths and tried to calm yourself down. 'Alright Y/N. You have got to stay calm. Everything is going to be okay. He won't find out.' You though to yourself.

You took a quick glance at yourself in the mirror to make sure the light blue sweater you were wearing was hiding your chest enough. You let out a slightly relieved sigh. Hopefully he wouldn't see anything.

"Y/N? Are you gonna let me in?" Gaku asked, slightly irritated.

You went to the door and opend it slowly. "Hey." Was all you said.

Gaku walked passed you and sat down on your bed. He looked at you and smiled softly. "Hey."

You sat at your desk which had a gamers chair placed about 8 feet from your bed. You hunched your back over slightly just to make sure your chest wouldn't get exposed. You couldn't risk anything.

"I was waiting in my room for you, did you forget already?" Gaku asked.

You sighed and placed a hand on your temple.

"Yeah. I just wasn't feeling all that great and I decided to take a short nap. Sorry about that Gaku.."  You apologized.

'Damnit... if only I hadn't fallen asleep with my binder on, I could have gone to his room quickly to see what he wanted and gotten out just as fast..' You thought to yourself.

Gaku looked at you in a concerned manner. He knew something had happened between you and Tenn at the photo shoot and he wanted to know what it was.

"You don't have to apologize to me Y/N. But.. did something happen between you and Tenn to make you not feel good? Ever since you both got back from Ryuu's dressing room, you both have been acting weird. He... He didn't hurt you did he?" Gaku asked.

You shook your head, dogging the question a little. "Oh no, it's not his fault I don't feel well. If anything it's my fault for being stupid and staying up super late last night when we got back from the beach, haha."

You rubbed the back of your neck nervously,  hoping he wouldn't ask the question again.

Gaku sighed. "Y/N. You didn't answer my question.  Did Tenn do something to you? When he came back from Ryuu's dressing room, he said you had gone to the bathroom, but there are no bathrooms in the male dressing rooms. You would have had to walk out the way you went in and gone across the building to get to the men's restroom"

'Fuck..I'm so screwed..' You thought.

"Well, I didn't tell him I would be in the bathroom so I'm not sure why he would say that." You tried to cover.

You knew you couldn't lie. That would break what trust he has for you and you really wouldn't have a chance to be with him..

But you also couldn't just ruin a friendship beginning to grow. Both Gaku and Tenn where just starting to get along and actually attempt being nice to one another. You couldn't possibly ruin that. You weren't going to ruin it.

"So then why would Tenn lie and say that you went to the bathroom?" Gaku said, getting slightly aggravated.

You looked away, avoiding eye contact.

"Seriously Y/N. What the hell is going on?!" Gaku yelled.

He was tired of you dodging the question. He wanted an answer and he was getting upset that you didn't trust him enough to tell him what was going on.

"Please don't yell at me. I've done nothing wrong. You don't know what I've had to go through and I'd appreciate it if you didn't take out your frustrations on me. " You said, with a few tears threatening to fall down your cheek.

Gaku sighed and looked at you with a sympathetic face. "I-I'm sorry, Y/N. I just want you to talk to me and be able to trust me. That's all."

You looked at the way Gaku looked at you. You took a deep breath and gave in. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you before I just... I didn't want you or the others to see me any differently.. the thing is, Gaku." You paused and took a deep breath.

Gaku looked at you with anticipation.

"I'm transgender.."

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Oh my gosh guys it's me Julian, yes I am still alive. I am SSSSSSSOOOOOO
SO VERY SORRY that this chapter took so long to make and get out to you guys. I've been so busy with school and band and now I have a part time job that keeps me busy. Since marching band is over (ended in november) things just seemed to get a lot more difficult for me. I've been going through a lot and meeting lots of people. I will try my best to do better with publishing more chapters for you guys. And I know I say that a lot but this time I really mean it. I will do whatever I can to get more chapters out no matter how tired I get after work or school. I love you all and I really hope you enjoyed this chapter.