A Deadly Promise

Chapter one

It has been about a week sense the first time we met. This time we went on a picnic by the river. We had ate some loafs of bread, grapes, and a chicken. Today I found that he was somewhat wealthy. It might not be what I looked for in a man, but, he fit into everything else I was looking for. This was our first date, and I was very happy to not be alone again. I asked "So, what is your occupation?" "I worked for the Military ever sense I was 16" he said. "Well? How old are you now?" I asked "I am 28. What about you?" he asked. "If I tell you... I might have to kill you!" I said while giggling. He laughed back, and said "Well, then we better get back to eating so i'm not encouraged to ask you agian!" I laughed again, and went back to eating. After we were done eating and cleaned up we walked back to town. Once we were back in town I asked him if he would like to stop by at my house for a little while. Once again I was happy... All because of the word yes.

I was excited and felt loved for the first time in years. Ever sense what happened to me... I just haven't been the same, but sense i've met him i've felt so much better. During the first date he made me feel so much better. He gave me a very good pep-talk. he said "I can tell your confidence is lower than it should be... Whoever did this to you is really not right in the head. Males who pull females down and tell them they aren't good enough are horrible people. You should never listen or consider people who have lower self confidence than you do. You are a beautiful woman who has great potential. So never let anyone bring you down..."

I can't believe He said that to me! It made my day, If it wasn't for him telling me that... I would have probably done what I hate doing. I have always hated myself for who I am and who I wil always be. I have always been this way sense the day I was born. I wish I could just be normal and not me. I know this is a lot of I's and Me's but it's true, I hate myself... But he is starting to change that. What he said to me made me feel so good about myself, it made me feel like I still have a chance... A chance at life. I know what your thinking (I think so!). You are probably think why am I so depressed and wnating to be normal. well, There is something you need to know... I am not human, I am not who you think I would be. I am a creature so horrifying that I am even afraid of myself. I. Am. A... Vampire....

Do you understand my pain now? Do you understand why I hide? Do you understand whay I am so desperate? Well, you should because it is quite clear to see (at least it should be). I will explain it to you anyway. My pain is how I can't be satisfied, I am always thirsty for someones blood. I kill people, causing their loved ones pain. I hide because I don't want to have that pain, and I dont want people to be scared. I am desperate because I just want love... I want to be loved and to share my love with others. But it's not possible, Not for me anyway. A creature like me can never have love in their life. We don't even have much of a life, we are almost like the dead. We can never be satisfied until the cure... or our second death.

Sam is the beggining of my cure. He is the one bringing me love and ending my hunger for blood. For he is the reason why I still want to live the life I have left. He is the only one that cares for me, the only one who thinks i'm beautiful, and thinks I am worth his time. Everyone else blows me off or uses me for something they want, then they tell me they don't love me. That is another reason why I am the way I am. Why I am so scared of life, why I want my death to come, but I know it never will. But it's him that is bringing me back up onto my feet. He is the one. He is the one that will save me.

I think if I can get him to be with me, maybe I can tell him my secret. Just if I could get to know for sure he won't turn his back on me later, then I will tell him. I just have to wait a while, just until I can trust that he won't make a mistake. I must hold myself back from telling him, but most of all I need to hold myself back from killing him... It has become harder and harder to resist him. Maybe it's his blood type, but I don't know. No! I am not saying this just because this is how that one book goes. You know? the book with the vampire who loves and can't resist to watch over the human girl. Well, this is not like that... Maybe a little, but that doesn't matter this is my story not theirs. Anyway, I have to hold myself back from draining him. I just can't kill the one that is my only chance. I have to protect him from me, but while I spend time with him at the same time. I just don't know how I am going to do that.

I may be a vampire or whatever you want to call me but I can still have a chance... A chance with life. Wouldn't you want that if you were me? Wouldn't you want to not have to kill people all the time just to survive? Wouldn't you like to have someone to love you? I might not know your answer but I know mine. Mine is yes. Just like the yes he gave me. For someday you will feel down and want someone to tell you the yes he told me. You will want the same "Pep-Talk" He gave me. You will just want someone to tell you that they love you! After all Life can't always be happy. Nor can it be sad.

As I was always told by my master "Life always evens out... No matter how bad or good something is the opposite will come equal to help things even out". As a young vampire I did not understand, I did not know what he meant by that. Now I know it means that nothing can stay bad nor good forever, that life will always meet in the middle. Even if it takes a while for the middle to come it will still even out no matter what.