If It Isn't Love (Social Media)

29; Real Life

Very sad chapter, sorry
Trigger Warning: Mentions of Death and shootings, Suicidal thoughts and attempted Suicide

Chrissy's POV

I can't believe this is happening. Why now when everything was going right? Jesse and I haven't spoken since the incident. We are both obviously heartbroken and torn apart. I keep blaming myself because I could've done a better job. It's all over the news but not who died. There was a shooting at a business where we were at. Jesse and everyone was on set. I tried to save her. I was released from the hospital a couple of hours ago. Now I'm sitting in the bathroom at the house in Chicago wishing it was me who was taken away, not my baby girl. Her funeral is in a couple of days and there is a candle vigil tonight. I never thought I would experience the pain of losing a child. Your child is supposed to be the one burying you, not the other way around. God why me? I wouldn't wish this upon anyone but why me? I'm sure Jesse blames me. I would and I do. I don't think I can live with this. I've cried all day and night. I just feel empty. Maybe I should end it after the funeral. Fly out to California and take the pain away. Maybe then I wouldn't be blamed for it and everyone would be happy again. Then I could be with my babygirl again. Tears start pouring down my face like heavy rainfall on a window. Next to me is a bottle of sleeping pills as I sit in our bathroom. I wrote everyone letters while I was in the hospital after I woke up. I left them on the counter and on the bed. I texted everyone telling them that I'm fine and they don't have to worry anymore about this pain because it ended today. I grab the bottle and my water. I swallow handful after handful until the bottle is empty. I lean against the side of the tub. I feel sick and lightheaded. I hear the front door open and shouting for me. I smile as I slump on the floor and slip into darkness. Soon to be reunited with my daughter.

A/N: I'm sure you guys were not expecting that. I'm sorry. But they weren't going to live a fairytale life forever. Backstory; Jacelyn and her mom were caught up in a shooting. Jacelyn was fatally shot in the neck and chest and died on impact while Chrissy was only shot in the side. But I just wanted to say thank you for 4K reads!! That's amazing. I love you all so much. I might start a sequel cause this story will end after a couple more chapter. Stay tuned everyone!