Once, You're Mine

4-Him

I can't sleep yesterday! Thank god that I rarely got an eyebag on both of my eyes. I give a little touch up under my eyes as it still looks tired and such a zombie-like. Then, I just comb my short brownish hair and put on my favourite perfume. I'm just wearing my casual white shirt tugs in with my short pants with a pair of pink sneakers.

I try to practice a smile but why it seems like a fake?

Arghh! So now, I am a fake. Tryin' to hide my nervousness. Good girl, huh?!

I went down and skip the kitchen as I really don't have any appetite to eat anything. My stomach feels full and I don't think I can swallow a food.

"Darling, don't you want some?" My dad yells out. "No, dad! I'm full,"

I rush out to Jessica's and ask her to drive slowly like a snail's pace. My nervousness can't tolerate so I'm shaking too much and keep fidgeting my fingers.

"Relax Ms.Ford. Why seem excited? I know you're ready to get some dicks," I slapped Jessica's arm. She replied with her sneaky wink and smirk on her lips.

"I'm not interested. I'm anxious,"

"Why? Just chill. You never meet him before right?" She says trying to calm me. "But, I don't know. It seems like something." I look down on my lap as my nerves shaking badly.

I feel like don't want to get out from the car as Jessica went to park her car. It took a few moment before I grab her arm, "Should I just bunk the school?"

"Nahh! Let's go and don't ruin my grades,"

"It's our first time after all," I scoffed. Jessica Wills worrying about the grades? Seems like a bullshit to me. She's a bit far from the top.

We walk to our locker and put on the code keeping the other books. It is my favourite class which is Art, after this.

"Hey, buddies! Looks who's here.." James says beside my locker and that's when me and Jessica turns our side to him. I froze. Jessica too. We froze. Awhile.

"Now, meet my long lasting friend ever.... Damian Eros!!"

My eyes can't even blinked and the beats of my heart increasing like a rollercoaster. I froze until my shoulders been shake a bit by Jessica and I can feel she rubs my arm to loosen up.

"Ouh-ouh... h-hi! I'm Jessica and this is Sierra," she says giving a big smile to him. Maybe a fake one. I nodded and says nothing.

"Why both of you look so surprising? Nahh, don't be so melt. He's not so handsome," Lucas throw us a wink thinking we're some sort of liking him. He should not know.. James too..

I clear my throats and keep looking everywhere except to the boys. I need to go from here collecting back my souls to be back into my body to get some consciousness. James hold my arm and tilted his head looking at my face. Besides Jessica and Dad, he's the one that can easily read my mind. He's sort of a brother to me. A big annoying brother..

"I-II am late already. Gtg," I muttered. Picking up my bag and rushing off to the class whereas I'm not really late actually.

"Urm, I think we should go together. But.. it's okay, you have me. Let's,"

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I sat on my usual spot and keep low. My head bowing down and I try to block anybody and the noises from my classmates. It should not happen very soon. It should be more than 5 years.

I can feels someone's presence beside me but I know it is Lucas. He takes the art classes just like me but he can draw better than me. I look up to see him but it was opposite. It... him.

Ouh yeah, he loves art and he experts in oil paints. Of course, he would choose an art classes as he majored. I let out a small sigh feeling that my last year will be bad already.

"Hey, are you okay? Why'd you left us?" I push my chair a little bit close to Lucas making a space more with him. I know he look confuses but I'm not ready to talk or look at him now. I need some space!

Through out the classes, I'm not paying any attention and keep my minds out of my body. His smells still like the old days. And I'm feel protected and calm by his sides. I close my eyes trying to atleast remember some memories. It was good... nice.... and loved. I let out my heavy breathe. It's all past..

"Ms.Ford! Ms.Ford! Ms.Sierra Ford!!" I felt my shoulder being softly push from my sides. I look to him and he points to the way of Ms.Caroline's stand. My eyes widened up and suddenly keep my body straight.

"I've been calling you for more than 2 times. Are you in here?" Mrs.Caroline says, looking pissed off to me. I apologise to her and lying that I'm not feeling well lately. She warns me to pay attention after this so that she doesn't have to give me any merit.

One hour and a half been so long than ever. I've never felt like torture being in this class before but now, all in my mind is to go home and stay in my bed forever.

Hey, do you want to go home after this?
-Jessica.

Yes, absolutely.

Jessica for sure knows me better. I really need to stay away from this calming myself and be ready for the next days.

I pack all of my stuffs as soon as Mrs.Caroline end her speech. I ignore Lucas's yelling out my name and rushed towards Jessica's car to go home. She saw me and we drove home without seeing any of our friends. Maybe Lucas is all confusing but not James as Jessica may tell him beforehand. We arrived safe and sound after speeding up.

"Hi darling!" Dad says while me kissing him in the cheeks.

"I'm staying tonight, Richard."

"Ouh, great. I'll be making dinner in two hours from now, alright?"

I nod to him and bring Jessica way up to my room. I plopped onto my bed throwing away my bag at the corner of the room. Jessica joins me and tickle my body right away that makes me burst out laughter.

"S-stop it... it's ticklish! Nooo.." I cried defending myself from being tickled over again. She stop and we let out a heavy breath to calm ourselves. The silence lingering around us for awhile.

"That's why you're being anxious, huh? You know it,"

"No, I feel it,"

She nods. All of my anxiousness being answered. My heart knows him. That's why I can feel him. The scars know when the hurts come.

"You're okay?" she asks. "Of course," I replied nonchalantly.

She hugs me and snuggle into my body. I let her be without hugging back. I still shocked and can't thinking straight. The moment I see him still clears that I repeat playing over and over.

"James ask me, though"

"Let him be. I'll tell him soon," I assured. But, seems like I'm not ready. I'm not ready to open the 'book' again after a long time. I shut my eyes and try to sleep. It's only the way.... to forget.

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Picture above is Sierra's hair. She's not fair but a bit tanned skin. Kind like Emma Watson in a bit tanned skin and short hair. Get it?!

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