Behind her smile

The awakening

A/N: First of all, the songs "Katy" write in this chapter is not mine in any way, I do not own them in any single way. In this chapter She sings seriously, by Katy McAllister.

The second thing is that I do not have English as my first language, so the grammar and spelling could be horrible at some places, but please look past that.

And please let me know what you think.

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I starred down at my hands, feeling extremely uncomfortable when the 2 men spoke with my manager, not even bothering to talk to me. Apparently, my manager, Stacey, has decided I'm joining the one and only, Justin Bieber's tour, as the opening act. To be honest I didn't mind, because I really liked Justin's music and all, but the fact that Stacey kept this a secret from me, still bugs me.
This has been decided for almost a month and she tells me today, the day before I leave. The 2 men, Brandon and Daniel, finally decided to talk to me about the whole thing.
"So Katy, you'll be staying in Justin's tour bus and sing your own songs on the stage.'' I looked up from my hands and my eyes found his, my head slowly nodding in agreement. "How many songs do you have right now?" He asked with a serious face expression.
"I have 3 finished songs" He nodded his head, and read something on his paper. "If you only have 3 songs, I suggest you write 1 or 2 more, and you better make it quick, because when we pick you up tomorrow, they should be finished"

I nodded my head and went back to looking down at my hands, when they all started to talk about when I should enter the first interviews, live appearances in radio and tv and stuff like that. Throughout their whole conversation I didn't listen so carefully, but then the man, I think Daniel, asked one question that caught my attention; "what about her parents?" A cold feeling hit my chest, leaving me pain-strucked and it made me lower my head even more. "They are dead" I whispered back, facing their now shocked expressions. First their faces showed shock, than sorrow and concern was written all over their faces. "I.. I didn't know... I'm sorry" Daniel said, guilt shining through his eyes. I just nodded my head, telling him it was okay, when in reality, it wasn't. The cold feeling in my chest was still there, making it hard for me to breathe. I stood up and mumbled a small 'excuse me' before I left the table, making my way towards the bathroom.

When I entered the bathroom I locked the door, and slid down the wall, sitting on the cold hard floor. Tears started to form in my eyes as I thought about the horrible accident once again, making the pain in my chest pound and sting.

*Flashback*

It was a day just like every other, my parents and my 2 younger brothers had decided that they should go out and buy some ice cream, while I decided to stay home and watch tv. I just laid there on the couch, doing nothing, meantime my family crashed in a car accident. Hours passed by, no one coming home. I started to get worried, so Icalled their phones but no one picked up. By a coincidence I decided to turn on the news, and there it was. A huge car accident had killed 7 people, and my family was 4 of them, I couldn't realize they were dead though, no it was a mistake. But then my phone called, and I answered without even bothering to look at the caller? ID.

"Hi, have I reached Katy Stanley?" A deep voice asked me, making me confused. "Yes?" I answered, making it sound like a question. "I'm sorry to tell you this, Katy, but there has been an accident'' my heart stopped at his words, not really understanding what he was saying. "Your family, they were in that accident" he continued, and my whole body felt numb. "I'm sorry miss, but they died instantly." My body went numb, causing my legs to start shaking, and I fell down to my knees. "No.. You're wrong" I hissed back at him, pain taking over my body. "You're wrong, they're not dead!" I yelled back at him, not wanting to believe his lies. "I really am sorry miss, but this isn't a lie nor a joke, they're dead and there's unluckily nothing anyone can do about that" his voice remained steady as he spoke. My eyes started to water, and my whole body shaking. As his words slowly sunk in to my head, I hung up. Never in my life had I felt this sort of pain, and never would I feel it again, hopefully. My whole body fell to the floor, shaking and sobbing uncontrollable.
My family wasn't perfect in any way at all, my parents were horrible and they often got drunk, but I still loved them with all I my heart. My younger brothers were so precious though, they couldn't hurt a fly. It was for my little brothers I decided to keep fighting, not for my parents
*End of flashback*

I found myself on the bathroom floor, bawling my eyes out. For the first time in a very long time, I've let myself cry for this, again. While I thought about my parents I realized this isn't what they would want me to do. They would want me to live a happy life, and show the world what I can, starting right now. I stood up from the floor, walking towards the big mirror over the sinks. My eyes starred onto the reflection, not so pleased with what they saw. I filled my hands with ice cold water and drowned my face in it a couple of times, before grabbing the soft towel and drying my face with it. Now, my face looked a little bit better, making my self-esteem higher.

I pushed the door open, and with confident steps I made it back to the table, sitting down. "Now, where were we? And sorry for that" I said with a strong voice, fake smiling warmly. "Uh, we were just talking about how badly we wanted to hear your voice, since we never heard it." A light smile spread across my face as I stood up, walking towards the singing booth. "Stacey, turn on the mic into my ears, please." Stacey immediately did as I told her, smiling lightly. When I entered the booth I smiled happily, for the first time in so long. I put on the headset, and got ready for doing the only thing in this world I actually was good at. "Which song?" I heard stacey ask in my ears, causing me to smile. "Seriously" I answered with a simple smile on my face, because it was my first song, and the one about my last 'boyfriend.'

The music started playing in my ears, and I prepared myself to start singing. "Hoping that you can't hear me, cause I feel like I am thinking, out loud. Wondering if you can read me, I guess there is no easy way out." I sang softly, nailing every single tone. Brandon and Daniel's faces light up at the sound of my soft voice, and I continued.

"I take it to far when ever you're around, but you caught me off guard, you're already breaking me down." My voice flew in my ears, still nailing every single tone. Stacey smiled at me, while Brandon and Daniel looked somewhat star-strucked, making my smile grew wider.

"I know I said I'm not looking for serious, but seriously. I didn't know that you would go, and be just what I need, Seriously." I sang with all my power, giving it all I've got, like always.

"Thinking I have you figured out, but then you leave me in doubt. You make me think I'm seriously crazy. Walking I see you turning away, because I don't know what to say. Do you seriously avoid me?" As I sung, my eyes closed in concentration, preparing me for the next part.

"Can you honestly tell me, you don't feel a thing, cause last night you honestly held me. And I was making believe you were really mine. I know I said I'm not looking for serious, but seriously. I didn't know that you would go, and be just what I need. Seriously."

I finished the rest of the song, still with my eyes closed, fully trusting my voice.

Once I was finished my eyes fluttered open, and a happy smile light up on my face. I seriously needed to sing, and now the pain from before was washed away, leaving me with pure happiness. As I removed my headphones I stepped out from the booth, turning off the power. All 3 of them looked at me, Brandon and Daniel with pouring respect shining from their eyes, still starring at me in another way.
"That was.. Incredible" Brandon breathed out, still a little star-strucked I suppose. A giggle escaped out from my mouth, surprising me more than anyone. It was such a long time I laughed at all, yet alone smiled. I still smiled at them, feeling a way of happiness take over my body. "Finally," Stacey breathed out, shaking her head lightly, giving me a big grin. Brandon and Daniel gave each other a weird look, not really understanding what she meant, but of course I did. Stacey thinks I'm depressed, witch might be true, but from now on I will try to be happy, now when I'm joining Justin's tour and all. And I must say, I do look forward for it.

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A/N: sooo should I continue with this or delete it? Let me know, well of course, if anyone reads at all x). Xx, Sophia