dear world,

feeling

Pain
Of NOT feeling
With my
HEART
But INSTEAD feeling
With my
BRAIN.
I know what i feel, i register it completely
though i don't feel it through out me
Its in my brain like a fact
I understand i can tell you what im feeling as if I'm explaining someone else's emotion. Not mine my bodys cold
Use to feel numb in away that was empty
But i don't feel that way.
empty is an emotion in its own way
instead i feel full, over filled.
Stone like a statue.
Is the only way i can describe it.
Sometimes it comes and goes
But mostly im afraid it might be here to stay.
The only time I feel sad is when a song hits me deep or a show is filled with love. Other than that I cant feel it in my chest. I know i love i know I'm happy
I know im sad but my body doesn't. Dont get me wrong I smile laugh and cry. However my heart dosnt feel the effect of sadness or joy.
Things that use to make me feel over exaggerated
now are the least to make my heart feel excited.
Stone
is all i feel,
not empty
but over filled.
Pain
of not feeling
with my heart
but feeling
with my
brain.