●°•~Boyf Riends Oneshots~•°● (ON HOLD)

and he will never love me back.

hi im having sad boy hours what's your name
there is no capitals because i dont rlly feel like putting in effort
heres angst
might make a part 2 if i feel better

"i just cant, michael."

"i dont like you like that."

"we would never work out."

"there is no us."

"why did the world have to be so cruel?", i thought.

this isnt how its supposed to go. its supposed to work.

they usually love each other and kiss and be happy.

but not now, not with us.

"im not gay."

it hurt. it hurt really bad.

do you know what its like to want someone so much and to hear they dont feel a thing for you?

i sure as hell do.

god, i love him.

the way his eyes light up when he smiles.

his adorable grin.

his personality, his body..

he hated all of it. but i wanted it so bad.

"i have never liked you like that!"

he lied though. he did once.

his eyes used to sparkle and his face used to get red when he saw me. he would smile and basically cling to me if he could.

once, on a friday, he passed me a note.

"can you meet me at starbucks later?"

but i was stupid. oh, so, stupid. i refused to accept it.

i told myself i wasn't gay. i lied to myself. and i will never regret anything more.

and i told him i was busy, even though i wasnt.

i wasnt doing anything.

and i went home and i cried. i cried so hard.

i havent cried that hard in my entire life.

i realized it.

i loved him.

i loved him, i loved him so much.

but i lost my chance.

and when i finally told him...

"jeremy.."

...i was too late.

"i love you."

and i regret it so...

"m-michael..."

..so much.

"i-i have to go."

"why? what did i do?"

"im sorry...i just have to."

"but.."

"i cant michael."

its all supposed to work out.

"why? why cant you?"

all these stupid movies and shit, it all works out.

"because."

they kiss. they hug.

"i-i just.."

they say they love each other.

"you fucking what, jeremy?"

theyre happy.

"i-i just... i cant."

but thats not how it works.

"i-i dont.."

that will never be how it works.

"i dont love you."

and he will never love me back.