I remember exactly how it happened. I remember every step, every move I took to get where I am now. I remember every wrong thought, I remember every false hope, and every false resentment. I remember every mistake and every completely stupid thing, that I've done. The only thing I don't remember is why I did it.
Why did I let it all get to me, why...? Why did I let myself get dragged into this world. This isn't the world I was raised in, this wasn't a world I'd even thought existed. Just simply rumors and photoshopped videos on the internet. I should've seen the signs. I should've seen.
I don't remember my mother, all I know is that she loved me. She had to have loved me, I mean... She was a mother, right? I'm not sure you'll understand what I'm talking about when you see this. I'm not sure if you even care or think that my world is real.
For those of you that do know me, hello for the last time. For those who don't know me... They call me Null. It's a stupid name now, it's a silly game we played, and it was childish to even think for a second, that nobody was going to get hurt.
It's only right that I tell you all how I became this... Thing. I'm a monster now, I'm not a person at all. I've lost my humanity, for all that I'd hoped to accomplish. If you know me personally, I'm so very sorry for all that I've done to you. If you don't know me personally, I'm sorry for all that my father has done to you. I wanted to be a hero, I wanted to be a good guy, but I see myself drifting and following in my father's footsteps every day.
Yesterday I killed someone. I took a life from a man, one whose life wasn't my own to control. I feel myself growing power hungry and I can't let myself do what others have tried before me. I never wanted this life, but hunger, that thirst for revenge, it drove me to this.
I wasn't always what you all are calling a hero. Once upon a time I was just a regular kid, with a regular life, a regular girlfriend, and a regular family. I lost all of that, sacrificed all of that just so that I could have what I do now.
I regret it. I regret doing what all I've done and today I'd like to tell you all my story, in hopes that you won't make the same mistakes I have. If you're listening, which, I know half of the planet is, my name is Null, at least, that's what I go by. My real name is Terrance. Terrance Smith, or, Terrance Jackson if you please.
Many of you know me as a hero, some of you know me as a villain. Either way, I can't say you'd be wrong. My intentions were never wrong, but everybody is susceptible to anger. It's like a line I read in a Shakespeare book in school last year, "There is a tide in the affairs of men." Everyone has alterior motives.
So let me tell you my story, the story of how I became.. a monster.
