Stuff that clouds my mind

The Early Days of Roleplaying

Roleplaying doesn't seem the same to me.

When I first started, I couldn't wait to get back to roleplaying when school finished. I didn't have a phone with data on it so I would run my legs off to get home quickly and get back to talking with people I could be myself with.

Those days were fantastic, I adored roleplaying. But things just seem different now. Roleplaying just seems so dry now that people I frequently roleplayed with disappeared, and then I took a break and came back (multiple times) and things just felt really repetitive.

There was no story with them anymore, I knew I'd fall back into the same rabbit hole with everyone I roleplayed with. There were no more unique roleplays I could get into.

I remember my absolute favourite roleplay. It was an orphanage roleplay but it just felt like everyone involved was part of one little community. There was something about it that just drew me in and I fell in love with it. But it slowly became a ghost roleplay.

I guess I just miss what I had and I don't think I'll ever be able to get it back.