Worst of You

Chapter 4: The new normal

-James who are you?

I didn't have a perfect answer for her. I can't tell her the truth. At least not yet.

-James?
-I'm James Wolfhard. Just that. What did she tell you?
-Nothing. Do you know Vanessa?
-No I don't know who she is. Well start your treatments and got to sleep okay?
-Alright.
-I'll see you tomorrow.
-Okay. Bye.

I put my phone away and throw myself into the bed and looked at the ceiling. What was I doing? Why am I helping a random famous girl? I don't want to put her in any danger, but I have the need to help her. This is not me.

-James?

A voice starts calling me. I wasn't even going to bother to answer.

-James!!

I honestly don't know what I'm even doing here again.

My door opens.

-I've been calling you.
-I told you to knock the door.
-This is not your house. You are just back here because you lost an amazing woman.
-Are you kidding me? -I said while I got up.
-Naya was amazing. You always make bad choices.
-What do you want. If you came here to remind me your miserable life, then go away.

He got closer to me.

-You better watch your tone.
-Or what?
-I'm your father.
-And I'm so proud of that.

He took my arm strong and put me closer. Anger was in his eyes.

-Okay stop it. –Said my brother while getting in my room.

My dad leaves my arms and starts facing my brother.

-Did you do it?
-Yes I did father.
-Good boy.
-You make me sick. –I said

My dad looked back at me.

-Where were you today?
-None of your business.
-You can't just go out in public like that.
-So I can't talk with anyone but you are allowed to just kill whoever you want.
-James shut it! - Said my brother.
-Leave him alone Nathan. He does know what he's talking about.

My father leaves the room. My brother comes closer to me.

-What are you doing James?
-Just leave me alone.
-You need to start being part of this family. Doing what he says.
-No thank you I don't want to be a murder.
-You don't know anything.
-No. YOU don't know anything. You are only 20. Get out. Have a life.
-You are going to end up killed.
-I'm not a sinner.
-Right. You are a saint. With wings and a fucking halo on your head.
-Just get out.
-Naya was right.

I got closer.

-About what.
-It would be a fucking waste of time to have a kid with you.
-How so.
-Because it would end up as a coward as you.

I took him by his shirt and put him against the wall.

-If you mention her again I swear I'll break your neck.
-I thought you weren't a sinner.

I was so fucking mad at this point. I was about to punch him but then all of the sudden a shotgun sounded. We both got scared and look at the door. My father was there with a pistol aiming the ceiling. His house is pretty away from the civilization so he thinks that making random shots around the house is normal.

-Stop acting like kids. Nathan get out of here.
-Yes father.

He got closer to me to the point where i was the one against the wall this time. He got very close and put the gun above my head. He put the other hand on the wall and whispered to me.

-You better stop doing what you are doing if you know what's best for you.
-You wouldn't kill your son.
-You are more useful dead than alive son.