Ocean Eyes

I stared at his eyes looking at his corpse in the coffin. The tears from yesterday were still there. I still can remember the things we did before but... I hated it.

Flashback- 19/7/18

I threw a vase across the room with all the force I had. He dodged it. I was mad at him and screamed at him."Cut all the bullshit out" I sobbed. He grinned and pushed me down. I was on the floor with bruises on my body. He sat on my legs. It hurt like fire on my legs. I whined with pain since he had a muscular body. 

He took a cigarette out of his pocket."It feels hot in here, doesn't it? What do you think Oja?" Did he say? He took off his  Italian made shirt. I saw his pecks and biceps. He started leaning on to my body. He looked at me thinking how pathetic I was. He wiped my tears away. And placed his fingers on my lush lips. "It's okay Oja. It's over." He tried to calm me down and I silenced.

He told me to follow him to the living room. I tried to look away from him but he grabbed my chin. " Look, I'm sorry. I was out of control" he apologized. I tried to look away but he caught me in his eyes. I felt like I had been sinking deep into his ocean eyes. He teared and went to the master bedroom, whereas I went to the toilet and undressed.

I went into the shower and turned my heater on. Steam started to fill the bathroom as soon as I finished showering. I heard the door creaking so I quickly wrapped up myself in my towel.

I tiptoed to the other room. As soon as I was done I followed his dreadful eyes to the bedroom. I laid my head on the soft silk. He closed the door. And stared at me with his eyes."For honor to our family". I got scared and teared. I took some air in and closed my eyes.

I could feel his hand roaming around my body. Slowly, my towel was unwrapped. He clenched my thighs. I looked into his eyes and touched his cheek."Why are you doing this Luka?" I whimpered. He shushed my lips." I told you already. Mother will be upset to see you cheating on me with Morin. Let's make her happy. Yes?" He told me.

I closed my eyes after that. I could feel him slipping his tongue in my mouth, searching for any possible space to be close to me. I groaned. He went tighter to me. I moved closer to him too. I touched his chest and said, " I love you". He stopped and looked at me. I went to him and started to accept him having sex with him even though it hurts a lot at the end.

I dressed and went to the kitchen to cook a dish. I was cutting the carrot using the kitchen knife. He went behind me and hugged my waist. Then, the most tragic accident happened.

I turned around and accidentally stabbed his stomach. He looked down and stared at me. I didn't know what to do. I stayed with him while calling the ambulance. Minutes after, he started to gasp for air."Oja, I'm sorry". I told him that it was alright and laid his head on my laps.

I heard sirens. Police questioning me about the incident. I told myself that I want to spend more time with him. He looked in so much pain. I could have been there for him... I could save him... I was so stupid before. It was not his fault.

End Flashback - 19/7/18

The priest said a prayer. Then, i went home and greeted by a familiar voice."Hello, Oja".