Crush, crush, crush
By: Kelly M. Castillote
As I remembered, I started having crushes when I was on my 2nd grade in elementary, at a private school.
His name was Ben. He is handsome and very tall for his age. Of all my boy classmates, he is the most stunning. I love it when we talk and play with each other. One time we played outside our classroom, along with my classmates. We were playing tag when someone suddenly grabbed my hand. It hurt a bit and Ben suddenly approached me. He noticed from afar that I was hurt.
He held my hand…
“What happened?” he said. “Does it hurt?”
It feels like a lightning struck to me and the electricity ran to the every cell in my body. I felt my heart beat faster.
“Oh it’s okay. It’s just a minor injury.” I said.
“Really, are you okay?”
“Really, I can manage.”
“Okay then. I’ll be going.”
“Okay bye”
Until then, I can’t remember any moments we had just like what I told you
lately and we never had a chance to communicate each other since he transferred
to another school.
On my fifth grade, I transferred on a public school near our house. There I
met new friends and reunited with my kindergarten friends. In public schools, sitting
arrangement is implemented and I sat at the back with a guy beside me named
Carlo. Yes he’s handsome and smart. But he is 2-3 years older than me. At first, I
feel a little awkward whenever he’s present- he always miss classes. I don’t know
why but that’s what I really felt when I’m beside him. I know his harmless yet I still
feel like he’s a bad guy.
One time, we were cleaning the pathway outside the room. Those days, I
never wore a baby bra or a thin shirt underneath my uniform even though my breast
is a little bit big due to puberty. When suddenly he whispered to me that it is
obvious. He told me to wear one and that was a very embarrassing moment. My
face went red at the moment. I was thinking that he was watching at me for long
time and I would have never known it if he didn’t spoke up. Yeah, it feels like creepy
but then thinking of it now, what he did was right. Confronting me of the things I
must do. I thank him for that.
In my sixth grade, I was on the first section. I had new classmates and
new teachers. I’m now on the graduating class, and as a future graduate, we must
join school clubs. I joined the School Government Organization (SGO). It is the top
organization in the school which holds all the sub-organizations in the school. And
there I met a new crush of mine. His name was James. He’s a really cool guy.
Charming and kind-hearted person. He’s smart and he’s an athlete. He’s sport is
soccer. I don’t know why I had a crush on him. I think he’s the man of my dreams at
that time.
And the votes were counted. I won as P.I.O and he won as sergeant at
arms. We became friends but not that close.
Sometimes when I ran errands at home, I use my father’s bicycle to
complete my tasks if it’s far away from home and coincidentally every time I ran
errands he is also doing the same thing and we most likely pass each other and
when he smiles it makes me more cheerful on my chores especially my task outside
the house.
There was a time I think we had a mutual understanding but then I think
he’s so shy to tell me what he feels for me. Being such a good girl, I waited for him. I
didn’t want to make to make the move. He must. I even rejected a guy that was
courting me for the hope that he will court me. But then what I expected never
happened.
I think God had planned that to happen. God made me realize that I really
want to be a single lady tilt ha day of my graduation in college-3 years to go.
When I was on my high school years, Internet surfing is so in the trend. I
must not be the last person to know the latest updates. May it be in music, movies,
games, and Hollywood gossips. That’s why I always go to internet cafés to surf the
net and that was the time I knew Christian. He rented the computer beside mine.
He really is a handsome and friendly guy. But we never had a chance to be friends
and personally only in Friendster – which was the number 1 social networking site in
those times.
I can really still remember the day added him on Friendster and how I got
his email. It was funny because he was beside me and was about to log-in. what I
did is read his email address as he was typing it and memorized it. After an hour or
so he log off first and got home. Immediately I searched for his profile on the search
tab and added him. He really is a cutie. After then, I saw him playing at the
basketball gym when one time I passed by. And sometimes I saw him at his school
bus at school days. We don’t really see him everyday. It’s like twice or thrice a
week.
And now I’m on my first year college. He’s still my crush. And one time, last
May, on our enrollment day, I saw him at school. I think he’s processing some
papers for the enrollment. I was shocked. I never thought he will be enrolling in my
school. I immediately brought myself to the master list and looked for his name. He’ll
be taking up Mechanical Engineering. I was so happy I will have the chance to see him everyday!
