Fearless (Sequel to Fetal)

Chapter 7

Ayeeee she's back a whole year and a half later I know I'm sorry babies 😭 I've learned about some people tho... don't ever trust someone if you even have the slightest bit of doubt about them and their character.. I moved and I everything was going well until the guy I was seeing saw on my Snapchat story that I was working with and hanging out with my guys in MIW.. then he pressured me into meeting them and almost destroyed my career because he thought I was fucking Vinny because he's one of my closest friends and we goof around.. since that it's just been one thing after another falling apart in my life and I've been struggling a lot mentally and physically.. but I'm going to start trying to be positive and make it through all this shit.. so I'm finally going to try and start back writing since it's always been my escape.

I stared down at the phone in my hand, my nerves making my hands shake and my breathing shallow. "Babe you can do this." I felt Chris touch my hands and came out of my fearful space out moment. "What am I supposed to say to him? I left, Chris. I disappeared and I never contacted him." I said, feeling the guilt and regret flood my mind and make my heart hurt. He grabbed my chin gently and tilted my head so I would look at him. His face held a gentle smile. "He's your dad. He will understand why you did it. You were doing it to protect yourself and Riley." He reasoned and I sighed. "I don't know." I chewed my lip nervously as I looked back down at the screen and all of the messages over the years. "Baby you can do this." Chris whispered with an encouraging smile. I smiled a little, my stomach doing flips from both nerves and him. I sighed, straightening myself up and tapping the message box. "Can you get me something to drink?" I asked, my voice shaking a bit. He leans towards me and kissed my cheek. "Sure Love." He said softly and got up, heading into the kitchen. I stared down at the messages and sighed, starting to type.

To @LonesomeGhosts
Hey dad... I want to start by saying I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry I left and I'm sorry I never contacted you. I didn't know what to do. I needed to get away from.. him.. I thought I was doing the best thing for me and Riley.. and in some ways I did. But in others, it was far from right.. I miss you.. Riley misses you.. it's been so long I don't know if you can forgive me.. but I hope you do. I need you.. Chris, he found us.. he's trying to take Riley.. I just I don't know if I can do this.. I can't do it alone.. a lot has happened and I finally found someone I love and that loves me...
You may know him, his name is Chris Fronzak.. Fronzilla.. he's been so amazing and understanding and I fell in love with him.. he's been taking care of me and Riley and we had a kid together.. I can't let Chris come
And take Riley from us..
So fronz and I are going to fight him in court.. I could use your support. Just whether or not you forgive me or want to help, just know I love you.. I wish there was a way to fix this..

I wiped my eyes from the tears flowing, biting my lip as I help back a sob. I heard footsteps coming up behind me and shook my head. "Chris I can't.." I looked up as he came around the couch, an understanding look on his face. "I know it's hard but you need to talk to him. You need to let him know what happened so you both can get past this. I know you're scared but you're strong. You can do this." He said soothingly and I nodded, looking back does at the phone and wiping my eyes, taking a deep breath. I tapped the send button and let out a shaky breath. No going back now. The message was sent and all that was left to do was wait. I felt my stomach twist as nausea hit me. I groaned, picking up my water Chris brought me and taking a few sips. It helped a bit but not fully. I sighed putting it off as nerves and meant over, curling into Chris's side, feeling him wrap his arms around me and place a kiss on my head. "I love you.." I said softly and felt his lips pull into a smile against my hair. "Ditto babydoll. Infinity." He said as he pulled back. I looked up at the tv that had been playing on low volume and saw Teen Wolf playing. I smiled a little and Chris chuckled. "That was the cutest thing." I looked up at him a gave him a questioning look. "You didn't see yourself but you looked around for a second then at the tv and got the cutest goofy smile on your face." He said and I blushed. "Shut up, butthead." I said shyly and he grinned down at me. "Damn not a day goes by that I don't feel like the luckiest guy in existence." I rolled my eyes at him. "Yea not like you're with a woman that has just had a life full of shit after shit because she fell for the wrong guy first." I sighed and he shrugged. "I don't care about all the shit. I care about you and the boys. You were young and that asshat took advantage of you and your crush on him then blamed you and hurt you and Riley. You did what you had to and you're stronger than anyone I've ever met. You conquered things moth people can't even conquer in their 40's. You're smart, strong, beautiful, and you're an amazing wife and mother. You're passionate, strong willed, kind, and so understanding. Ever day you make me fall more and more in love with you by just existing and being here with me. You'll never get how special you are to me. Chris can come in here and burn our lives down around us and I wouldn't be phased because as long as I have you, I have the world." He said and I felt my cheeks burning bright red as tears pooled in my eyes. "You're such an incredible guy, Fronz.. if it weren't for you I wouldn't be who I am today. You've helped me overcome everything from my past and you encourage me every day to be the best me I can be. You took in my son and raised him as your own and you gave me another little boy that has grown into a shadow of yourself. I couldn't be more proud of him or Riley. I love you more and more all the time. You walk into the room and my heart stops and my stomach flips. Every day is like the day I realized I was faking in love with you.." he grinned down at me with so much love and adoration in his eyes, it made me melt. How in the hell did I get so lucky?