Not mine but i edited some of it
In my room crying inside
I wear my scars with absolute pride
The war inside i fight by myself
The pain it carries ruins my health
It's like a private battle going on inside my head
My mind says "use use the blade" my heart says "live instead"
My mental war zone stuck in the battlefield
But to the darkness i will yield
I keep my feelings hidden within Yet they escape in a bloody tide
Thinking of it now they'll know again i lied
I try to control the need
But i desperately crave release
And now i know deep inside my blade will bring me peace
There are nights i lay awake and dream of better things
Than cutting my wrist and watching it bleed leaving me red stained rings
Every night i wonder why, as the blade rests in my wrist
Such a temptation to take my life and yet i still resist
I say im fine but I'm broken beyond repair
I'm cold to the touch but it's not like you care
The scares of my past hidden under my clothes
Is a roadmap to hell yet nobody knows
It's not like anyone worries for me
And now when I'm dead I'll be happy and free
