Have you ever felt like flying, gliding in the sky with the clouds at your fingertips? And have you ever felt like falling from that roof of stars you were cutting across through, a certain feeling of fear clawing in your heart, but you love how the rush made you feel so alive anyway? And then you almost hit the ground, but you land down alive and pumping with adrenaline and the feeling leaves you hanging though you're quite very uncertain of what that particular feeling is.
Take that feeling and multiply it by two. That's what it feels like to love someone so unexpectedly and untimely even though you didn't want to in the first place. And it hurts more especially if the person you fell for was the one you'd least expect it to be.
I don't know why. I'm not even sure I'd want to find out. But all I know is, I'm in love with this curly-haired disgrace to mankind named James Noah Carlos McGuiness, who makes a fool of himself everyday, is awkward, embarrassing to be seen with, and includes drinking, falling over, and losing his phone as his past time, who sings like a fallen angel, light and soft as feather floating on air; whose smiles make these weird feelings -- pleasure, want, hatred, love, annoyance -- ricochet in the walls of my body, spinning me into a dreaded oblivion of forever and confusion; who makes the spaces between my ribs ache with longing and indecision, hesitancy and terror, yet at the same time, with inexplicable love. I'm in love with all his bullshit.
And I hate it.
I hate him and I hate loving him, because I do.
It all started when I became a fan...
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Bittersweet Serendipity
FanfictionCaleigh's a fangirl. She's already got her heart set on Nathan and Tom, and her luck gets her to fall for Jay. And she hates it. She hates how he makes her feel. She hates how he makes her feel so vulnerable and weak and awkward and mad. Mad and men...
