Gravity

Chapter 32

Sigh.

I miss Ashley.

She's been gone for...for eleven hours and I'm going insane.

I miss her voice.

Her scent.

Her smile.

Her eyes.

I think I'll just say that I miss everything about her.

"To see you when I wake up, is a gift I didn't think could be real. To know that you feel the same, as I do, is a Three-fold utopian dream. You do something to me. That I can't explain. So would I be out of line, If I said, I miss you." I sing along with Blink 182.

Yes. I'm back to this again.

Don't judge me.

"Spencer." My mother peeks her head in my room and says. I turn my head to look at her but don't say anything. "I know that Ashley leaving was hard..." She starts and I sigh and roll my eyes.

"I see your picture, I smell your skin on, the empty pillow next to mine. You have only been gone ten days, but already I am wasting away. I know I'll see you again. Whether far or soon. But I need you to know, that I care, And I miss you." I sing, sprawled out on the bed as my mother stands in the doorway.

"Spencer, turn that off." She commands me but in a soft tone.

"Fine." I say and get up to turn my iPod off.

"I know that you're sad, but you can't miss school." She tells me.

"I know. I'll be ready in a minute." I tell her and she wordlessly nods before leaving my room.

I miss, Ashley!

–

"I made you breakfast honey." My mother says to me as I enter the kitchen. "All your favorites." She adds as she places a plate of food in front of me. It really did have all my favorites. Eggs, bacon, pancakes, fruit. I sigh and push the plate away.

"Not hungry." I tell her and she raises a brow.

"Spencer Carlin, eat some breakfast." She says in a motherly tone and I groan before picking up a fork full of pancakes and stuffing them into my mouth. Chewing them in anger as my mother stares at me.

"Happy?" I ask sarcastically, with a mouth full.

"Very. And don't talk with you mouth full." She scolds me before walking around the island and grabbing her bag off the counter. "I'm gonna home late so here's a twenty for pizza." She says giving me a twenty from her wallet. "I love you." She kisses me on the forehead and leaves. I push the plate of food away from me and sigh. Maybe if I just snuck away to South Carolina no one would even notice.

Yeah cause that worked so well the first time.

–

"You can't just mope around all day, Spencer." Madison tells me, as me her and Jade walk towards the school.

"I can and I will." I tell her in a firm tone.

"Well, we wanna do something to cheer you up." Jade says in a peppy voice.

"Hey, there's no peppiness today." I tell her, pointing an accusatory finger at her. "Absolutely none of that, you hear me." I point some more. "I want to be miserable today and if you were a good friend..." I trail off, eyeing both my friends. "...you'd allow me to be just that." I tell them with a head nod.

"Hey bitches." Taylor greets us with a smile, as her and Gabby approach us.

"No smiling." I tell her.