I didn't think this would happen
You said it'd be different
I believed you
You promised me you wouldn't leave,
You said the first time you had made a mistake.
And though I know why you left,
It's still killing me inside.
I thought I was the cure, not the cause.
Now I know I'm the disease
You can't get rid of me, not fully.
But I will set you free.
This way, you aren't stuck missing me.
My heart is still whole, my smile as well.
But look deeper inside,
Then you'll see I'm not swell.
The reason I'm writing tonight,
Is because of the tears I'm trying to fight.
4AM, my body arose
Dreaming that you just may be close.
4AM, that's how I know it broke.
