Fire and Desire

Chapter Forty-One

Elena

We drove around the city for hours. Angelo was in control of the driving while we followed our realtor as she took us to different houses around the San Fernando Valley area that we were interested in. Not sure if I was being a Negative Nancy or what, but I wasn't feeling any of them. I guess my heart was really set on the house that we lost out on. Maybe I should spare my feelings and not get so invested in these things anymore.

I let out an internal sigh as we approached the another house. Angelo parked, then walked around to my side to open my door. As we toured the house, I listened to our realtor tell us all of the fabulous things that this house had to offer. I could tell that Angelo was trying to be positive. He kept a smile and said something positive about everything mentioned. I just couldn't get into it.

Twenty minutes later we were back in the car and headed off to the next one.

I could feel that something was on Angelo's mind by how the vibe had changed. He was thinking and wanted to say something but was holding it in.

"Elena, baby I know that you wanted that house," he began as he turned down the music, "I wanted that for you. Shit, I wanted that for us. Maybe I should've...went in with a higher bid or something. I don't know. Look, maybe we can build a house just like it and add our own thing to it."

"It's okay Angelo, really. We'll find one."

"Yeah, but you've hated every single one we've looked at so far. I can look at you and tell that you aren't happy."

He reached over and rested his hand on my thigh. I offered him a soft smile and leaned over to kiss his cheek. He was really trying. I needed to stop acting like a brat. The house was gone. There's nothing I can do. Being pissed off wont put it back on the market.

"Like you said, we'll make it work. At this point I don't care where we live as long as we're with each other."

He took his eyes off the road for a second to smile at me. His phone rang shortly after that. I tuned out whatever conversation he was having when my stomach starting feeling a little funny. It wasn't that I was getting sick again, but rather the feeling of something being there.

I went in to thought about how a little human that Angelo and I made out of love was growing inside of me. I'm so blessed. Given all that I went through, I was expecting it to be hard for me to get pregnant. However, I prayed day and night that I would be given another opportunity to be a mother and here I am. Now I'm praying that my boyfriend will be just as happy as Aubrey and Em says he'll be.

"We have a change in plans," he said, hanging up the phone, "we're headed black to that house in Sylmar. Apparently, there was something left their for us."

"Like what?"

"Probably some samples. I got a little ahead of myself and started the process of redecorating."

To be honest, I didn't want to go back there knowing that there wasn't a chance of us having the opportunity to be there. Regardless, I sucked it up and road along.

Our realtor beat us there and was already inside. Angelo parked, turned off the engine and got out of the car. He walked around to get my door and realized that I wasn't budging.

My attitude is never really this funky, especially with him. I think these pregnancy hormones are starting to kick in.

"Babe-"

"I'm fine Angelo. Go ahead and grab whatever it is. I'll stay here."

"Come on."

He smiled and grabbed my hand, gently pulling me out of the car and closing the door behind me.